merrY cHristm@s!!!

Yeah..is time to be merry..HappY birthday to my dearest friend-->Sh@ron!

During the christmas eve,my ji mui n me already planning to celebrate pek lan birhtday at autocity! But the day i went to QB with friends untill 5pm,then come back hostel and prepare myself. The time pass very fast! Boy n me go to fetch lei first then we go to nearby tesco buy the cake and eat our dinner there,because everyone very hungry already. Actually when we go to fetch jiun already late a bit..but we are still can rush the time go to pacific pick pek lan.

When reach HALO cafe is already 10pm something,there are so many people to countdown. This is the first time i celebrate christmas with boy! Nothing special la,just in normal mood.

I am so happy can celebrate with all ji mui coz we really long time didt gather in 5 members lioa! Is a happy gathering..but that day i feel like i didt talk so much with my ji mui coz suddenly my coursemate coming to join me n boy...so i just accompany her lo,and much talk with them..Sorry ya ji mui!

sHaRon birthday...

i like it....

five forever..and ever

Boy..Sharon..Sawchia

funny picture

funny pictures

meRry chriStmAs...

*~*失眠夜*~*

最近我都失眠的,一到晚上就睡不下了!我也不知为什么,脑里总是爱想东想西的,可是到最后还是没想出什么东西!失眠真的很难熬,我最讨厌就是失眠了,想睡但是睡不下那种痛苦!而身边的他,当然是睡到很熟了!有时他半夜起身也会被我吓到,因为我还是眼睁睁得!然后我就会被他念几句!"为什麽不能睡啊?"是不是下午睡太多啊?".......

也许最近就是在烦着我和他的事吧!这个星期四是public holiday,心以为他不必做工,因为大多数人都没做!但是今天我问他(其实还没问他之前我心里已有答案了),他说他有做,当时我真的有点不开心了,所以在车上就静静的,吃东西也不想说话,他说笑话我也笑不出...我心想他没做工,我们可以去走走的!唉...而我呢也做决定回家,他也没说什么的,也说ok咯!吃饱后,他就带我去买车票,其实我是很懒惰回的,但是想到这么多天假期,难道就真的要呆在宿舍吗,所以才决定回家!反正他也没说什么!

另外一件事就是,每当我们出去,我要牵他的手,他就会把手放进裤袋里!我真的很气他这样子,难道牵手会很为难吗?心里总是不舒服的!今天当他又把手放进裤袋,我也赶快把手放开了,我也不再牵他的手了,除非他自己牵我的手!而他也很聪明,他知道我今天怪怪的,就一直问我做么静静的，而我就笑笑说没事！为什麽我不直接告诉他呢？因为我觉得说出来也没用的！他一定有他自己的原因的！

就这么的一天就有很多事让我觉得不舒服的！也许只要我把每件事想开些，就不会弄到自己那么的不开心了！

不能理解的疑问！

今早送他出门去做工后，我就不能睡了，所以就打开电脑，想一想成绩出了，才去看看！真预想不到的事，好令我伤心哦！我花费一个星期准备的那个科目，尽然那么差！为什么？我真的很不明白，当时考试，我全都会做！有些朋友平时都不怎么对这科感兴趣，都考的比我好！为什么？我对这次的考试的付出，为什麽会有这样的答案呢？

今早坐在电脑前发呆了，我左想右想真的觉得我的付出是白费的!而其他科目都没另我失望，我越是期待高的那科，结果且反效果的！为什么？我心里有很多个为什么？？我还能怎样？

今早去学校报名，知道朋友都考到很好，为什麽不是我？难道我还付出的不够吗？这个学期，那科还有part II的，但是我已不敢对它抱着很大的期望，所以我决定不拿了！因为期望越高失望也高！

唉！为什么？为什么？为什么？

五个月的日子

很快的我和boy在一起相处已有五个月了，那就是140天了，也就是3360个小时了！哈哈！这是最正确的算法吧！其实在这段日子，真的要谢谢他咯，因为我觉得他帮我蛮多的！虽然他神经线大条以外，但是他还真的有把我放在眼里！他总会帮我分析我的问题，我的烦恼也减少了！

一对couple难免也会有一些不爽对方的时候啦！但是都没大声吵架的!五个月了, 对他的了解还是有点保留, 我想是时候要问清楚 了, 要不然就摸不清楚对方! 把握一切吧!至于一些future的问题就要好好的想一想吧!你的青春还在!

*~搭巴士记~*

今天我和如花三约好一起去看戏,因为我们两个实在太闷了,在宿舍无所事事的,其他如花有工作的就做工咯!如花三说好一点在bus stop等,太概等十分钟,眼睁睁得看着去gurney plaza的巴士经过了!其实我们都不会搭什么号码的巴士,所以如花三决定转巴士,我们先搭去jetty然后再问看怎样搭!还好我们出门都遇贵人,贵人自动会问我们要去那里啊,自动教我们怎样搭.(其实我们的样子看起来像不会搭巴士吧,因为我们都东张西望的).

这整个车程都浪费了我们两个多小时了,真难以相信吧!当中我做了一个很有意义的事.平时不要搭巴士就觉得那些巴士很可怜,因为只有三两只小猫而已,可是我们搭的那辆巴士尽然挤满人了,站在我面前的是个很老的uncle,我犹豫了很久不知该不该让位给他坐,最终我还是起身让他老人家坐!哈哈!

我和如花三看"THE GOLDEN COMPASS",起初还以为很好看,怎么知那套戏完了,尽然还有人发出一个很奇怪的声音"huh.........."，我和如花三都笑了，原来那套戏是没有ending的！看完戏都已经六点半了，如花四也放工了，我们就一起吃晚餐咯！

还好回的时候不必搭巴士，要不然就死定。我们做如花四的车回，大家都安全的回到宿舍！这一天就这样结束了!

《选择》

对于这份感情，我真的不知该如何走下去！其实并没有争吵，只是我家人方面！为什么他们对我每一段的感情都有意见呢？难道我真的选错了吗？他们一直在我耳边说这个那个的,搞到我对这份感情跟本没信心了!家人一直说他不好,工作方面不好,人格方面不好.......他们对于我心目中的对象是怎么样的呢?

开始觉得他们很烦,他们都说我找的男朋友来去都是这样子的!那到底是什么意思?唉....而他们越这么说反而我会越反感咯! 我清楚自己在做什么...我不是要靠男人才可以的!我也有自己的想法!他们就是这样要把事情弄复杂.他们还说要我毕业后回kl做工...难道我没有选择的权力吗?

其实这个问题我一直都不敢告诉他,因为这样会很伤人的自尊心!也许一切都顺其自然吧!

oNe day touR with frenz..^-^

26 of december i am going back to selama with mum n brother,coz mum said wanna back to take something for my eldest sister,coz she is now confinement...

The next day i decide to go penang with my buddy n do our hair together,from the start got 4ppk wanna go hair but then just leave me n jiun only..jiun also go for her second interview in gurney hotel...yeah,finally the company wanna hire jiun liao,so jiun will have her first job in penang..after her interview we went to gurney plaza to do our hair..after consideration,i make a decision to do curly hair,actually i also want to do rebonding which is same with jiun, but the stylist told me that my hair style not so suitable rebonding coz too "nipis" at the bottom part of the hair..

Haiz...at last i do the digital perm,i want the natural one,cz i scare look like aunty look..after finish to do hair, me n jiun went to kimgary eat our breakfast+lunch,cz too hungry liao! then we only go to queenbay mall to meet lei n ing..we have our dinner there at nando's...haha!really long time didt gather together liao,unfortunately still less one,who is lan..she is now working at pacific so cant join us..

From the beginning i told jiun cant overnite cz mum wanna use car, but then i still overnite,haha,,,,we went to sing K at red box karaoke with frenz...we sing untill 3am,so terrible hor,somemore ing need to work for the next day...but i still feel happy with that although we seldom meet but still can crazy together..many of them said that i m "bian tai"..haha cz i always "intip" one of the frens' underwear,cz he always didt wear his pant probably so i "tidak sengaja" saw it,actually i m not "bian tai" la...haha

hOOrAy.....hOLidaY

好不容易才等到这一天的到来哦——〉那就是考试完了咯!真的好难熬哦!辛苦我了..哈哈!
样子真的憔脆了很多,熊猫眼都有,痘逗又有....唉!
我第一件事要做的当然不是睡觉咯,那就是我想去剪头发,boy一直都说我头发很难看,不知我的是什么头发,令我好难过(被他这么一讲):-(
考试完的意思就是说我要回家了,不可能要我呆在槟城无所事事的,每天都等他放工啊,所以才决定回家..顺便回去看selina(我大姐啦)的baby,那就是我的外甥咯!暂时分开一个月当然很难做到,最多我们也是分开一个星期而已..这次应该会两地跑咯(kL&penang).我想应该不是大题啦!最重要的还是互相体谅,迁就...想通了^0^

雨天的一场考试！

今早我很早就起床了，印象中应该是四点凌晨吧！我和boy都约好这个时候起来，是不是很奇怪为什么他也那么早起床咧！嘻嘻（他不是陪我读书啦）。。我读我的书，而他做他的功课。。可是到后来只有我起身，而他继续睡，因为下起雨，很好睡嘛。。。

这次的考试让我付出很多精神！第一次天没亮就爬起来读书而且是读完了就直接去考试了！这次的考试让我很紧张哦!我也不知为什麽这样子!
接近考试时间了,外面还是下很大雨,boy就问我怎样去,然后我就说搭巴士去咯,因为一直以来我都是搭巴士的,(其实心里是很想他说:"我载你去吧!")但是他静静没出声而我也没说要他载啦!
过不就雨还是很大,他就说我载你去啦!..心里爽的不得了..!这时我的朋友就发了一个信息问我:"需不需要载我一起去?"这个朋友boy也认识的,boy就问我要怎样,我就说我想他载我去咯...然后他就说他要直接去做工,又说等下他不会从学校出来...........一大堆的借口!当时的我脸色都变了,就爬起身不睬他了!(无论他怎样叫我)想起来就生气!如果他一早那么想,那之前他就不会说载我去了啦!害我考试都脸黑黑的....:-(

快乐星期六！

今天一早就起床了，送boy出去做工后，我就继续读我的书，然后十点去朋友家一起温习！大概两点这样爸妈来找我一起吃午餐（觉得好幸福哦），然后他们就回了，因为我要考试要温习了。。
之后我也听话继续温习咯！今晚boy的朋友结婚，他问我要不要去，想了很久才决定不去了。。

第一：要考试了！
第二：怕闷！
第三：不知穿什么衣！
第四：之后要去夜店！（久没去了所以不是很想去）

我就以为晚餐要自己"搞定"　了．．电话终于响了，原来是我久没见得 "茹花三"（nai nai )，她约我一起吃晚餐咧．．哈哈！我们很久都没见面了，数一数都快四个月了（从我生日那天算起）．．我还以为她把我给忘了！

"茹花三" 八点就到了，她把她的战车（kriss motor）停在学校里面，然后我们在我宿舍楼下meet咯！过后就一起走路去吃pizza，从八点多吃到十点多，店都快打烊了，我们还在谈天（无所不谈）那种．．你们是不是很羡慕咧？

好久都没好好坐在一起谈天了！突然好想念你们哦！
我们还谈不够，nai nai还上来我宿舍继续再谈，可见我们的友谊不会因为时间而冲淡哦！

preparation for final exam !

I am having my two weeks study week now..This semester i am going to sit for 5 paper in the final,so a bit stress for me..coz now already final year liao,so have to put more effort on it..If not i will lose in second upper class liao..i m just at the 3 pointer,so a bit risk for me...Haiz,hate exam la...last time i still have a roomate to study together but now leave me alone study in my room...actually its ok la,but sometime will feel a bit boring,noone can chat with...study from day to night...i really dun know why malaysia education why want to have exam..

At night,i wait for boy having dinner together lo,then we back my hostel n i continue to my study while he continue online at my room..Luckily,i still can conentrate on my study although he is beside me..He is so understanding me..haha

Good Luck to SAWCHIA final exam o!!!!!!!!!

久违了。。。

好久没上来“坐坐”了！好想念你们哦！刚从subang回来有点懒了，然后又要开始温习了，因为考试就快到了！

那天我妈载我回来槟城，还没回宿舍，我们就先去queensbay shopping，直到七点多。。送妈妈下楼后，回到自己房就开始找电话和钱包，最后才知道原来放在妈妈的bag...当时的我真的很躁急了，就和朋友借电话，这时我才想起妈妈的电话也没电了。那为什么我不打我自己的电话呢???因为我的电话也没电了...真的很胡图!急死我了,眼泪都快流出来了!最后等到boy来,才觉得安慰一点,就用他电话找人,原本打算回selama拿的,但是最后找到妈妈了,原来他们还在kulim highway那边,boy就飞车载我过去,妈妈就在那边等我..妈妈终于第一次看到了,妈妈有和他笑笑..我一下车妈妈就骂我,因为这是我第二次这样子了..哈哈!
之后就和boy去大山脚吃东西,他约了他朋友..吃完就回槟城了!

第二天我打给妈妈,她就说要考试了,不要参朋友到处去(她指的朋友是boy),看来妈妈是不喜欢我拍拖咯....我就撒谎说只是普通朋友而已,暂时不适合告诉妈妈!

气死人的星期日

这一切我都不明白“它”真正的定义。。。我真的很努力在控制自己的坏脾气了，我也试着去体谅一个人。。但是有时觉得自己这样做真的很辛苦！好像不是真实的我。

今天是星期日，我原以为会有什么节目的但是一直等他睡醒已经是六点了！天啊！竟然让我等了一整天，我真的好生气他这样子，如果前一天是有做工，我还可以明白他做工累了，要多睡！但是前一天是public holiday啊！而且我还比他迟睡咧！我一直有叫他起身可是他就是不听，让我肚子饿了一整天，他有叫我自己驾车去买东西吃，可是我就是想和他一起吃啊！忍无可忍了，我就去喝麦片咯！

他起身了，他叫我，我不睬他，他知道我生气了，他就用了＂taktik"来骗我的谅解．．他带我去tambun 吃螃蟹，生嚎！我们两个还有他一个朋友去钓鱼台！

隔天就要去kl了，要等到一个星期才见面了，所以我特别紧张这一天！吃完回到宿舍已经九点半了．心想可以好好聊天了，但是他接到朋友的电话，约他去喝酒，他问我要不要去，我立刻想都没想就说不去了，他问我为什么？我就问回他一定要去的吗？他就说看我自己咯！他知道我不爽了．．我真的摆着我不爽的脸让他知道．都那么迟了，我也不想出去了，因为都换好衣服了！

他今天又不知去到几点了，我给了他一把锁匙，不理他几点回了．明早我还要搭早上的巴士！

h@ppy hoLidAys..^-^

Today is public holiday (selamat hari raya),boy no need to work for two days,yeah so happy! Today (13 october 2007) is we being together 3months,but no celebration la,we have the time to accompany each other lo...really very fast,already 3months liao..u know,one day,one of my fren ask me,why dont bring him home let my family know him,i just keep quiet,cz i dunno how to answer him..then he ask me izit not confident with this relationship? after a few minutes i nod(angguk kepala)...i think that i really not so confident,maybe it will take time for me to let my family accept it lo..

The whole day nothing to do,we woke up is already around 1pm, he said want go to wash his car n cut hair..we went to one-stop there having our breakfast+lunch--->KFC....sien nia

At nite we went to the "new world park",ate "bak ku teh" with his frenz..i am so bored, cz just knew his frenz,just sitting there n listen what they are talking lo,but sometime also dunno what they are talking..There also very nice, just like a park,many shops and cafe and restaurant there...

The day before holiday, we went to QE2,just have a chit-chat there with frenz..the view at there very nice and beautiful,along the seaview..unfortunately i didt take any nice photo there la,just one picture can show here! actually that day i m drunken la..haha,so embarrass..

two buckets of heineken

莫明其妙：-（

我真的不知发生什么事咯！昨晚说他要回家，我也没多说什么啦!他到家了有告诉我，我也没怎样，然后通了几个sms，他就没回我了，我以为他睡了，就试着打给他咯，他真的没接电话，我就真的以为他睡了．．

过了一个小时，他打来了，我真的吓到，就以为他不小心按到电话，拿起电话他问我刚才打给他什么事，他说刚才电话放在车上．．哇！当时我真的很生气，你懂吗？他回到家又出去都没和我说，害我以为他睡了！我真的很生气他！

今天一整天，彼此都没有对方．．他弄我生气，尽然一句道歉都没有，一通电话也没有，一封sms都没有．．刚好我电话也没钱了所以也没理他．气死我了！刚刚接到他的电话，他喏无其事的．．什么态度啊！！！！！！

沒有"你"的日子!

今天早上只是去上一个小时的课,我想是最后一堂了所以就去上咯!反正在宿舍也没事做!去到学校才只有三个人而已,也没办法啊,老师说也要上!这次是我第一次上那么少人的课..

之后就一整天在宿舍了,快闷死我了!boy又要做工哦，没办法咯，然后他今天又要回家所以都没人陪我了！原本打算一个人去走走的但是他又不给我去喔！真讨厌，就在宿舍咯！看戏啊，上网啊．．．．真的很无聊啊！原本想提早回家的但是又有假期哦，又想多陪大家几天所以才选下个星期回．．

是时候学会独立了，有时真的想一个人去走走的，不需要任何人的陪伴，很想试着过这样的生活．．以后还有很多事都要学会独立了，不能一直都依赖了．．可是又不习惯一个人的生活，因为我是不甘寂寞的人！哎，做人真烦，要求总是那么多，要求那么高．．可是如果不是这样的生活，那会进步呢？

Finally.....

Yeah! At last, i pass up all the assignment already..so happy with that..Before that, always rush the assignment from day till night, not enough sleep..So , now i can sleep how much i want liao..haha
During my busy time, i ignore my friend, so at here i would like to say sorry lo, cz really crazy to do the assignment untill no mood to talk...
Start right now, i will have my study week for 2 weeks, after raya i will go back subang one week then return to penang fight for my exam liao..so enjoy first, bitter at last...hehe

Gua Tempurung v.s Jiun Birthday

Last week i am so excited cz my ji mui "jiun" say she want to come penang have a gathering with us, (actually she want us help her celebrate birthday)..haha

But then she sms me said that she lazy come, i know the truth reason la, is my fault lo...At first jiun said want to overnite at my place, u know i m so bad i ask her can go nai nai there or not cz of HIM.(berat warna ringan kawan)..Weekend nai nai need to work so inconvenient lo, so jiun decided not coming le...SORRY! If not we can celebrate birthday together, i really feel guilty u know...

Luckily, selama buddies plan to go Gua Tempurung. At first i plan to go with ka farn car but he tell me that his car already got 5persons, so me n ing discuss wanna go or not lo..finally keat lou say OK..so we join them!

Early in the morning, i wake up le then prepare everything n wait for ing..we all meet up at the rest station Sg. Perak.

I feel that very happy cz long time didt together le, luckily we not like strange each other, still fren like last time...haha, am i right, girls?

After adventure the gua, we all feel hungry, we go to have our dinner with economic rice..haiz! Then they decided go to Jusco to play bowling, but then they say go to play games first then girl go to shopping lo, nothing to buy la cz tired ady no mood shopping, but my ji mui "jiun & ing" still have the energy to shopping la..

3 of us stop at secret recipe have a seat n have a chit chat there..me n ing order mushroom soup while jiun order a cheese cake..At here i want to say sorry to jiun, although u order the cake, why i didt realise that is ur birthday la..haiz..somemore the bill is paid by u..haiz..

On the way back home, i am thinking about that, then i ask ing "why just now at secret recipe we didt buy cake for jiun ar? Why didt sing a birthday song to her ar?" Ing also say "ya lo hor"..at that time i just feel sad, so important date also can forget, haiz!....so bad n terrible.

Hope jiun wont mind ya!

Some pictures to show here:

3 of us become "luo tang ji" "Nike & Puma" also get we
Girls & Boys

me capture with my camera first then jiun take capture with her camera..."siao"

Finally we take picture together

friendship can be remained forever?

Actually i am so curious about this friendship..i dont believe that friendship can be remained forever..Why i always facing this problems in my life? HATE IT...just like be abandoned and betrayed....
When the other join in, i can see the friendship start changing..i really didt think too much, i can feel it,u know....i just like being foolish by someone,so stupid...haiz
U know perli by friend is not a happy thing, i just like to share with each other, not the type to show off or fighting in materialistic...Right now, i also feel that i am being far from them, i dunno what topic they are talking..
When doing work, they didt take it in serious, everything dun care..For me, when is the time to play i will enjoy it; when is the time to do work i will be serious...that is me...
When asking people something, please ask in manners way...if u want to ask then u must listen to that person...but the person fight back what u talk, is rude..if u dun believe what i say then better dun ask me,am i right?
what the hell? Haiz......being stress, u know?
What is the inner of friendship?
When i am not happy i can share with; when i need help, they are beside me;
Last time we share the problems together but now nomore already..all become materialistic and realisitc...

my favourite ---> duRiAn cake

Last week my friend tell me that Secret Recipe got a new cake that is DURIAN CAKE. When i heard that i am very excited, so the next day i m going to search it, finally i found it..Unfortunately, the girl say cannot sell in slices. If want to buy need to buy the whole cake..DAMN...
I am going with boyboy...he saw my disappointed face, then he say wanna buy the whole cake, but i say dun wan la cz i scare i cant finish it..On the way back hostel, he said that buy the whole cake then share with others friends lo...after i think twice, also can mah...i can share with others...the next day again, i m going there..haha...gila durian....i quickly take the order and decide to buy it...haha
I am happy today i get my durian cake lo...erm...actually not very nice la,the MAnila PLace is the best one..inner of the cake is full with the real durian but the Secret Recipe one just durian paste only...But, i still can eat durian cake...yahoo..hooray....thanks boyboy bought for me...i love u..........haha

h@ppy wedding ^_^

16 of September 2007 is my second sis-Rachel wedding. So the day before that is friday i am off to KL to attend the wedding.

Erm..actually nothing special and no more fresh coz of the environment. At first, we all decided to have the buffet at my big sis hus but then she is pregnant so the old people say good news and good news cannot wor..so just rent the hall at 3K,just a simple hall,somemore the preparation of the food just normal,not very delicious. That night we overnite at the apartment at Sunway Resort..My sis having her wedding there!The apartment very nice and beautiful la,but many of our relative didt turn up. Maybe too far for them to reach..

All my siblings and cousin think about the game to my sister in law..but then he is not the sporting guy,reject to play this play that..haiz

About the dinner is combine with the boy side,at Sekinchan..From subang to there,its take almost 2hours..along the journey we all very tired but no choice ar,also have to be there..

The whole day, we reach subang at 12:30am then i quickly pack my things and chat a while with mum,is already 2am.So i quickly go to bed..u know why?because i am taking the flight at 6:55am,that mean i have to wake up at 4am,i just slept 2 hour only ar....so cham!!actually no need so rush geh but that day the lecturer said that the monday class very important so i have to turn up lolz, if not i will stay untill tuesday!

Finally we all pass it happily although we are very tired....@_@

關心>>c@ring

好久沒上來聊聊天了...也沒甚麼忙啦!最近也沒特別事發生...
那天我去剪頭髮,我真的很後恢因為我覺得比之前的難看又難達理...真的很想頭髮快快長!再加上下個星期是我二姐的大好日子(結婚日啦)!
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.....還有我覺得他并不關心我!他忙到連我也忘了!在朋友面前他有時沒想,要講甚麼就講甚麼,都沒理會到我的感受!有時和他講話會覺得他語氣很重,我真的好討厭這樣子喔!有時我寧願靜靜得,選擇不說話是最好的..不要再和我說"應該告訴他我的感受"..我覺得自己沒有錯......
他今天又沒來找我,他說有東西做,當然我相信他啊!但是心裡會很不爽啦!我不會告訴他因為我知道我說了,他會認為我沒體諒他...開始覺得要維持一段感情真的很不容易!一切都須要時間!

~tHe beginning of Septemb3r~

Yesterday i went to eat dinner with HIM and his friends(a couple). We went to opposite the Northam Hotel..em...quite boring sitting there,like a "soh po"..dunno what topic they are talking,dunno how to join in...

Sometimes i feel that he just think that i will make him "no face" in front of his friend,this is what can i feel...why?any wrong with me? I dont think that i will make my partner "no face" lo...but he is different..laughing me..

My 4th sis(cherie) going back to subang during this weekend,but i didt go coz of HIM..if i go then he will feel alone here so i make a lie to my family that i cant get the ticket.( actually i didt try to buy it)..so bad hor..

Today my 3rd sis (agnes) 3G me, i saw their happiness there,accept me at penang..they are going to One-U shopping then go to Sekinchan having dinner with my 2nd sis (rachel)..they go to eat seafood there..i havent been there eat seafood leh...:-(

The whole day, i just stay at room,no where to go...waiting HIM finish his job..sometime feel boring with this kind of life...just steady,no increase no decrease...so this few holidays,u will see i am free to drop my feeling,my comment here...

"alone in my room......"that why do some childish thing lo>>>self-capture

~米跌價>>merdeka<<~

HooRay......merdeka!merdeka!merdeka!
今天是公共假期,而我呢只好呆在宿舍!因為他要做工!!:-(
之前問他時,他和我說沒有但是突然又說要做了!就只好遷就他!就只好體諒他!原本約好朋友去金馬侖的但是到最後我卻放他們飛機,希望他們不會怪我啦!
米跌價的前夕,我和他去看戲 還有我的koko & tai shou.看到來都十一點多了,就去cosmic坐坐,順便倒數"米跌價.".還好我們坐的是風水位,能看到煙花..我們大概坐到兩點就回了!....

真的那麼脆弱嗎?

最近也沒甚麼特別,還是老樣子.....
那天星期日,我都呆在宿舍一整天,等他放工!好不容易等到他放工了就很開心的拿起電話,怎麼知他和我說要回去找老板談公事..我明白我應該體諒但是就是很不開心的耍脾氣...他問我要不要去吃?當然我說不必啦!因為我都知他要回了,所以就說我自己去吃而他也說好的.
想了想還是覺得應該讓他知道我的心情<失望>..
Unfortunately,i didt get any reply from HIM.So i know what happen liao>>that is he angry with me...from that moment he didt care me,didt call me up...Ask u all again,am i wrong?
One of my "jie mei" said that i have a bit wrong..that is i didt "ti liang" HIM..
Actually i know geh,but i just wanna let HIM know my feeling,that's it..
The next day,he find me but a word he didt talk to me,both of us just keep quiet and pay attention on our food..no more talking
At that moment, i feel very sad..if he angry me or what,he can say to me..I dun like people treat me like that,i dun know what actually happen,what actually he dun like,what actually i am doing wrong...he should tell me...but none..
U know what my feeling now...he acts like dun care,no sms,no call...what for?haiz...................I HATE IT>>>>"the feeling people didt care about"

<<話題少了>>

是不是見面次數多了,話題就會跟着減少....
我覺得我們之間的話題變少了!每次坐下來吃東西,大家都把注意力放在食物上!有時我會想還沒在一起那種快樂!大家無所不談的,想說甚麼就說!!
有時會覺得很悶....但是快樂的時候還是會有啦!
下個星期是假期,很想和他兩人出外玩但是他要做工所以想都沒想因為知道是不可能的!沒關係啦....
昨天是我第一次發他脾氣喔!因為有是我覺得他講話往往都沒顧慮到我的感受...弄到我很不開心....也許大家都須要些時間去了解吧!不要收在心里因為這樣會造成心里不舒服!盡量去表達自己.....加油吧!!!!!

outLooKs...

I am really care about someone outlook especially wearing....it is very important,u know?
I know cz of his job so he has a dark skin, this is what i can consider but then his wearing i totally cant accept lo...u know he already very dark then he still wear the bright color shirt..really like uncle la...hehe
Why i am so care about ar?....haiz....
Sometime i feel like cant talk so much with HIM lo,whatever i say sure he say me this and that...i dun like ppl say me like that especially those close with me...i tell HIM that his fren chat with me through msn,i say his fren very "fan" keep asking the same question, then he say i dunno talk wor,dunno cut off the question...what i can i say?i cant rebate cz i dun hv chances....haiz
Just like wanna......give up....hehe

..wi$hiNg U..

Today is his birthday...so as usual as a friend, i just sms him n wish him...just a simple message"happy birthday"...
Then he keep calling me but i didt answer his call..i dun wan answer because nothing talk with him..somemore i think it is unfair if i answer his call..so i just change the mode to silent...
Actually nothing mah cz last time when i brithday he also wish me mah so now when his birthday so i just wish him lo...so fair lo...
I didt answer him then he msg me n ask me why dun wan pick up the phone?BUt i still didt answer/reply him...i dun wan make him think too much..i wan him forget it...if he treats me as friend maybe i will answer his call..
Anyway,i just hope he will do in well in his carrier..good in health...really hope he will happy all the day...find a suitable partner....finally happy birthday to uuuu...

無心傷害

對不起!我真的沒注意到你的出現...
和平時一樣,上完夜課,我就和他去吃東西!我們去吃我的最愛,那就是<果條湯>....
怎麼知去到那裡才知道那個攤販休息沒開!!反正都去到了就順便在那吃了!當我準備開車門下車時,我竟然沒注意後面的摩托車,就這樣被我的不小心弄倒在地...我就喊叫因為被當時的情況嚇壞...
當時的我很害怕,就躲在車里,腦袋一片空白!!
I also dunno how to describe at that moment..Luckily the motorist no injured and no need to pay any fees..Why i am so careless??If anything happen to motorist then how am i...cant imagine!!
He thought i also got injured then he keep asking me, izit any hurt?then i say nothing...we still go to eat there, i feel guilty and just keep quiet..haiz..
Sorry to HIM cz i make his car spoilt and need to take it to repair...
I promise that next time i will be carefull, wont be so careless anymore!!

oNe mOnth lolZ..

Today me n HIM already being together for one month..time pass very fast..The time being together very happy lo,sometime i also make HIM angry lo,maybe bcz of my expression..he seldom make me unhappy la,sometime he likes to "kacau" me like saying,he go to know other girl,cz he knows sure i jealous then he will ask me izit jealous??haha...hopefully this relation can be longer + happier...

I m going to buy HIM a shirt just for the one month anniversary..

Only me happy lo,cz my family still dun know i got bf..i really scare they dun like lo..just give me some time,after that i will introduce HIM to my family,hope they can accept HIM lo..

我真的可以容納嗎?

我在想有時自己是怎樣的?好像傻傻那樣不懂自己要的是甚麼....
告訴你們,其實有時我會想起以前的他!!我真的不知為什麼會這樣子!!
我總覺得自己還放不下那樣!我會覺得對現在的他很不公平..他們兩個都有不同的性個,有時候太相似了!所以搞到我自己很矛盾!!
哈哈!你們是不是認為我想太多了?為什麼我每次都這樣的...真的是死性不改!!我想應該很難改了!!!

@M i think too much?

RUsh for assignment!!Sien!!!!
While waiting HIM come to fetch me eat, i m writing my blog here..
Today i have appointment with the lecturer, i wait my friend downstair..then when i saw her/him, then i walk toward,but i feel embarress...u know why?
WHen i almost reach her/him car, she/he drive her car more front..u know at that peak time,so many ppl there..very pai seh!!at least she/he can wait me go into the car mah..haiz
Now just feel like she/he always perli me this or that..my heart cant receive all those things..where is she/he??last time she/he wont like dat....why har?
Maybe i think too much lo...coz sure when i tell everyone that,they will say me think too much...noone can understand my feeling at that moment ppl perli me....
So i choose to write out to express it....hehe

bLuR in miND>>------@

"Why i m so blur about it?"
In some actions, he is too similiar last time "him". I feel like cant step in anymore, hard to express my feeling to HIM..when he asking me question, i just like cant explain well to HIM..i try but i fail..he just like not very understand me, he always wanted the answer in complete way. BUt it is hard, u know?HAiz......
Actually my mood very good on that day (4-8-07)..
we went to watch movie, go to eat sushi king although he dun like to eat but he still accompany me..Sure i feel happy!!But all changes in a second......
On the way, he ask me some question, but i cant give HIM the answer that he wants..then he just say"if fee hard to say then no need to say",he say just both of us in car only, why i still cant voice out...it is too similiar,just like happen last time..i very hate this feeling, nobody care about my feeling...he just like impatient when talking with me..OMG!!
U know i already try n try n try!!finally......:-(what i get??NOthing!!!
Izit all my fault??i cant really understand the situation..
He has different characteristic..
After express out, i just feel like relax and my heart just like put down a rock..
Really hope that everything can remain...just be same...i just need a simple life!!!


"hold me in warm palm"

*tiRed*@_@~~~~~~~

Yesterday night i was going out with HIM and ah nai..Actually this is the second time ah nai met HIM..em..we go to eat together lo,i talk a lot with ah nai,i just leave HIM there eating..haha...Ah nai,what do u think about HIM?ok mah?

This morning, i having diarrhoea..i m not sure whether is food poisoning or not..hehe..i have class the whole day so a bit tired..Anyway,i finally pass all the day with the joy..

aha....u know today i went to eat my lunch,i saw a old fren--->>>chang wey (zhu mu)..so surprise when saw him,coz really long time didt met each other although we r same studying at penang..we just talk a while lo,coz his gf waiting for him outside..
Ahhhhhhhhhhhh....tired!!@_@

..E@T less N less...

Today i went to eat laksa,lobak & poh piah with my coursemates.I think it is too much for me,so right now i have to keep fit loh.Coz keep on eating also no good to my health..a day become fat n fat..haha..
After that, went back to fren hostel continue assignment then went to eat Baskin Robin...haha...four of us eat the"quart" one..wah!very full!
Hey,fren!dun influence me liao ar....i dun wan eat so much anymore...ok?promise ya!!!

end of july

em.....end of july..why i say so?Coz the time pass very fast like a fire..

everythings is ok for me. But dun know how all my friends leh? Izit they also same with me?Hope to hear good news from them..

ME n HIM ady start relation..we have been together already 2 weeks++,hopefully it can be longer..

Sometimes, i really confuse about my feeling toward him..i dun know is a right decision or not..dun know we r the match couple or not..

If u ask me"why i will choose HIM?"

I really dun know how to answer loh,maybe is the fate la..while being together with HIM, i will think back about last time..i know it disturb my mind but i cant stop thinking it...

hey gals....u all get what i means?hehe....:-)

Anyway, just go ahead la..dun even look back!!!

boring SATURDAY!

Today i just stay at hostel, rushing my assignment. U know the whole day, alone at room, facing the icing wall,nobody talk with....just a word to describe the feeling "LONELY" +" BORING"...
Finally, i finish it lor...then i go to print out..
THe night is coming..but i still at my room with my partner"laptop"..
THis is my first time drop a message through the BLog..em...the feeling still ok lah..thanks fren..is u ask me to create one new blog!! :-)