《没那么简单》

没那么简单，就能找到聊得来的伴；
尤其是在，看过了那么多的背叛；
终是不安，只好强悍；
谁谋杀了我的浪漫；
没那么简单，就能去爱，别的全不看；
变的实际，也许好也许坏各一半；
不爱孤单，一久也习惯；
不用担心谁，也不用被谁管；
感觉快乐就忙东忙西；
感觉累了就放空自己；
别人说的话，随便听一听；
自己做决定；
不想拥有太多情绪；
一杯红酒配电影；
在周末晚上，关上了手机；
舒服窝在沙发里；
相爱没有那么容易，每个人有他的脾气；
过了爱做梦的年纪，轰轰烈烈不如平静；
幸福没有那么容易，才会特别让人着迷；
什么都不懂得年纪；
曾经最掏心，所以最开心，曾经。。。。。

不真实的感觉

在他身上，他给我的感觉很不真实；
第一点：
那天他给我他的面子书的户口，他叫我加入他在面子书；
我就说好啊，可是我知道我是不会加入他的；
还好我没有咯，因为他有两个面子书的户口；
他给我的是，没什么用的，都是用来看别人的私隐；
另一个才是他真的在用的，最后被我扯穿了；
第二点：
那天他说你看我的电话没什么秘密的，
我假装伸手要抢他的电话；
结果他很紧张的握着电话；
然后，我就起身拿东西，他又以为我要拿他的电话；
结果，他抓着我。
总而言之，在他身上，我就觉得很不真实；
如果是一不小心，就会跌的很伤！

爱在不对的时间

今年是虎年，听说肖牛的今年的运晨好得不得了；
结果呢？谁遭殃？还不就是肖牛的朋友们咯！
我也包括在内！

在这个时候的桃花运是超级好的；
所以很难明白为什么会被人爱上了；
被爱上的理由就是一见钟情；
还蛮戏剧化的；
对我来说，还是接受不来；
虽然是认真，但是对不起；
我已经属于另一个他了。。。。

黑色星期三

今早开车去上班；
一出路口，
远远就看见一辆红色灵鹿坏在路上；
没想多的，自然就转左；
可是跟在后面的黑色车；
不知他是鬼择眼，还是没留意；
不只速度没放慢，还加速呢；
结果就在我车旁，乒乓。。。
真的冷了一下！
我想司机应该是没事吧！
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到了办公室；
开了电脑；
看到宝贝的脸书竟然是开放恋爱；（这么小事而已）
对我来说是没什么咯；
但是我家人却不是那么认为；
她们都很认真的；
结果我就被审问了。。唉！
种种对他的不是都出现了。。
我只好选择无言。。
因为我知道自己在做什么。。
我清楚自己要什么。。
我知道你们怕他欺负我，
但是我已经长大了；
我会自己照顾自己。。

决定

回槟城的决定是对的吗？
可是又觉得自己已经适应这里的环境了；
至少回到家，还有姐姐在；
在槟城，要租房，和不认识的人住，好像有点难！
唉。。。。
突然觉得自己没有做工的天分；
每分工都做不长久的；
是时候改一改态度了。。。
加油！！

等下见

今早和平时一样；
起床，刷牙，冲凉；
吃了早餐就去上班；

到办公室，拿了信；
打开看了；
天啊。。。
虽然请假了，但是还必须来；
什么道理；
也许这个就是责任吧！

拨了电话给他；
所以决定等下回去；
车票也买了；
等下见！

突然很想有个家

黄素镓，不知怎么了；
突然想有个家。。

可是我知道不是现在；
这和恨嫁是不一样的；
但是身边人就会说；
你现在这么说而已，当你真正面对时，就不一样了；
我的直觉告诉我，他是可靠的，他是疼我的；

我不需要婚姻的约束；
只要彼此在一起开心，舒服，幸福；
我就满意了。。。

失眠夜@-@

又失眠了；
那晚真的很难过；
好不容易入睡了；
又被吓醒；

尽量不去想了；
可是脑子不听话；
种种的画面出现在脑海里；

真的真的觉得人生啊。。
怎么那么戏剧化；
唉。。
别想那么多；
珍惜身边的最亲；
这是最重要的；

==伤心==

今天是星期六；
一切都和平时一样，起身，上班，监督考试；
监督中，还抓了一个学生作弊；
真难过，为什麽要作弊；

四点半，监督完毕；
走回取车的方向；
看了看电话，怎么多了那么多未接来电；
拨回如花三，她的语气听来不是那么好；
直接就问她什么事了？她告诉我一个坏消息；
我们的小如花的父亲过世了。。。。。
真的很伤心难过，一切都太突然了，还接受不来；
想一想，拨了一通电话给小如花，她一开口就哭不停了，
为了安慰她，我忍了不让眼泪流下；
放工回家的路上，一边驾车，眼泪一直流；
（都忍不住了，说真的，驾车流泪，真的很难驾）；

真心希望小如花坚强，乐观，好好照顾自己。。
珍惜身边的每一个人。。。

Awaiting for A loNg hoLid@ys

I am here to wait for the holidays,not because of CNY. I cannot feel any CNY mood,everything just like normal. I am happy to wait to meet my family, my old frens,my loved....=)

My BELOVED FAMILY: i love to spend time with all of them during CNY, the situation of my house is Fullhouse. During the bed time, we have to book/reserve a sleeping place or the best way is better sleep early..hehe..I like the moment when we on bed, sure will have a chit chat n laughter s first..then my mum will awake n join us..until she said:"eh, don't chat anymore, i have to wake up early in the next day."...

MY LOVED: i like to spend time with u during the time he come back from work..sure he will smile with me first,actually i know he is tired but he still smiling face! Then he will require a kiss from me,but mostly i refuse. You know why, just because he haven't take bath yet..

MY DEAR JI MUI's: i much much more excited to have a chit chat with u all. By the growing up of age, the gathering time is getting lesser n lesser due to each other has their own life,partner...we can even match a time n sit down n chat. But luckily, we still can maintain our FRIENDSHIP until now. THUMBS UP to our FRIENDSHIP..almost 10 years time le...=)

wait...wait...wait...i will spend my time wisely within this 2 weeks holiday....yeah!

Stay OR Leave?

I hate to make decision. Once i settle down, i am lazy to change my current status. After this short semester, i really have to think about it.

He asked me to come back but now i just wanna step into my job, is not so responsible to leave without learning anything from here. At least i gain some teaching experience before leaving.

Hmmm...i know is hard to maintain a distance relationship but i think i can do it within a year. I hope i can be successful one day! I want to earn $ n get all the stuffs that i want to own...hehehe!

Be, give me some time, just like u mentioned before..We work hard together to deserve a better living...

Lecturing is a challenge job?

For some people, they will say that lecturing is a easy and boring job. But for me, the only part of challenging is the way u give lecture to your lovely students. They are some questions in my mind when conduct a lecture.

1. Do they understand?
2. How to make a lecture more interesting?
3. How to lengthen a lecture?

I had already finished my Second Semester teaching in TARC but i still cant really handle well of my lovely students. They are so ego in some particular case. I asked one of the class rep "actually u all understand?" He answered that they learned it before during 1st semester. OMG,so they can show their boring face during the class, talk in class, sleep in class???? I nearly want to give up them, but some students show their willingness to learn. So what to do? I only can be patient during the lecture and tutorial.

One of my colleague was asking me whether interested in teaching AutoCAD? Erm, actually untill now i still do not know what is my strength area? I worry that i cannot handle well. But he told me late or early u also will ask to in charge it. Haiz...hope that i quickly can find out what is my strength area in this case..

Well, now, all my lovely students are having their study week and they prepare to sit for examination next week. I hope that they can answer well in this paper. Good luck to my lovely students.

2010 New Year..New Target..New,nEw,neW

Welcome to the year 2O1O! Any planning? Any targets? (as usual people will ask so)

Erm....for me, i have a lots of planning and target to aim. But the thing is whether can achhieve or not. Without the action, all the dreams also cannot come true. I want to step in the perfect life in terms of enjoying.

Well, what is my planning?

1. I plan to study at oversea (either Australia or UK)
2. I plan to make some changes on my career (more challenge job)
3. I plan to marry......haha! NO WAY...=)

Any targets?

1. My first LV bag
2. Canon DSLR
3. RM 30K in 5 years time (seem like impossible to make it)

Seriously, I really hope that I have a good career in future, a caring partner in my life and of course the most important is my First Bucket of $GOLD$.

All those above are my aim of target n plan in year 2o1O. I am sure i can identify them in year 2O15...W@iting...

At last, i am here to wish all my ji mui, friends, loved, family --> good fortune ahead in the year 2010...