^^ 镓镓有本难念的经 ^^

还能在一起吗？

2011-07-05T14:38:00.002+08:00

这个问题一直都重复的出现在我的脑海里;
可是我呢，就只会逃避现实；
昨天忍不住的问他，其实有没有想过我们的将来？
他问回我，你知道我们两个人的一个月开销是多少吗？
我回答：不懂！（其实我心里有数）
他说：算一算，一个月的收入要维持八千块。
他说：家，我赞时都不想买，我想把钱投资在别的东西上。
我听了一直都静静，我觉得真的是时候想清楚我们的将来了。
我觉得自己很没有保障，很没有安全感；
意思是说，他都没把婚姻考虑，一直都这样同居下去吗？
我要的生活真的不是就这样。。。
原本都好好的，自从他大姐那件事后，我们的东西都不能完成了。。。
唉。。我该怎麽办？？26岁了啊。。。还有四年就进入三十了。。。。。。。。
一切都在自己的手中，可是我。。。真的不敢去想，不敢去做决定。。。。。

终身幸福

2011-04-28T21:38:00.002+08:00

是时侯该想想我的终身幸福之对象，环境。。
从香港回来，让我想通了很多人，事，物。。
他究竟有什么优点？
我也搞不清楚，现在的我也看不清，
他没时间陪我，为了让我有更好的生活，是好事是坏事，我也不懂！
太多了，我真的写不出来。。

我想是时侯让我自己静下来，好好想清楚！

《没那么简单》

2010-03-27T14:00:00.002+08:00

没那么简单，就能找到聊得来的伴；
尤其是在，看过了那么多的背叛；
终是不安，只好强悍；
谁谋杀了我的浪漫；
没那么简单，就能去爱，别的全不看；
变的实际，也许好也许坏各一半；
不爱孤单，一久也习惯；
不用担心谁，也不用被谁管；
感觉快乐就忙东忙西；
感觉累了就放空自己；
别人说的话，随便听一听；
自己做决定；
不想拥有太多情绪；
一杯红酒配电影；
在周末晚上，关上了手机；
舒服窝在沙发里；
相爱没有那么容易，每个人有他的脾气；
过了爱做梦的年纪，轰轰烈烈不如平静；
幸福没有那么容易，才会特别让人着迷；
什么都不懂得年纪；
曾经最掏心，所以最开心，曾经。。。。。

不真实的感觉

2010-03-17T16:05:00.002+08:00

在他身上，他给我的感觉很不真实；
第一点：
那天他给我他的面子书的户口，他叫我加入他在面子书；
我就说好啊，可是我知道我是不会加入他的；
还好我没有咯，因为他有两个面子书的户口；
他给我的是，没什么用的，都是用来看别人的私隐；
另一个才是他真的在用的，最后被我扯穿了；
第二点：
那天他说你看我的电话没什么秘密的，
我假装伸手要抢他的电话；
结果他很紧张的握着电话；
然后，我就起身拿东西，他又以为我要拿他的电话；
结果，他抓着我。
总而言之，在他身上，我就觉得很不真实；
如果是一不小心，就会跌的很伤！

爱在不对的时间

2010-03-10T10:42:00.002+08:00

今年是虎年，听说肖牛的今年的运晨好得不得了；
结果呢？谁遭殃？还不就是肖牛的朋友们咯！
我也包括在内！

在这个时候的桃花运是超级好的；
所以很难明白为什么会被人爱上了；
被爱上的理由就是一见钟情；
还蛮戏剧化的；
对我来说，还是接受不来；
虽然是认真，但是对不起；
我已经属于另一个他了。。。。

黑色星期三

2010-03-04T11:27:00.002+08:00

今早开车去上班；
一出路口，
远远就看见一辆红色灵鹿坏在路上；
没想多的，自然就转左；
可是跟在后面的黑色车；
不知他是鬼择眼，还是没留意；
不只速度没放慢，还加速呢；
结果就在我车旁，乒乓。。。
真的冷了一下！
我想司机应该是没事吧！
*******************
到了办公室；
开了电脑；
看到宝贝的脸书竟然是开放恋爱；（这么小事而已）
对我来说是没什么咯；
但是我家人却不是那么认为；
她们都很认真的；
结果我就被审问了。。唉！
种种对他的不是都出现了。。
我只好选择无言。。
因为我知道自己在做什么。。
我清楚自己要什么。。
我知道你们怕他欺负我，
但是我已经长大了；
我会自己照顾自己。。

决定

2010-02-26T18:00:00.002+08:00

回槟城的决定是对的吗？
可是又觉得自己已经适应这里的环境了；
至少回到家，还有姐姐在；
在槟城，要租房，和不认识的人住，好像有点难！
唉。。。。
突然觉得自己没有做工的天分；
每分工都做不长久的；
是时候改一改态度了。。。
加油！！

等下见

2010-01-29T10:17:00.002+08:00

今早和平时一样；
起床，刷牙，冲凉；
吃了早餐就去上班；

到办公室，拿了信；
打开看了；
天啊。。。
虽然请假了，但是还必须来；
什么道理；
也许这个就是责任吧！

拨了电话给他；
所以决定等下回去；
车票也买了；
等下见！

突然很想有个家

2010-01-25T10:29:00.002+08:00

黄素镓，不知怎么了；
突然想有个家。。

可是我知道不是现在；
这和恨嫁是不一样的；
但是身边人就会说；
你现在这么说而已，当你真正面对时，就不一样了；
我的直觉告诉我，他是可靠的，他是疼我的；

我不需要婚姻的约束；
只要彼此在一起开心，舒服，幸福；
我就满意了。。。

失眠夜@-@

2010-01-25T10:18:00.003+08:00

又失眠了；
那晚真的很难过；
好不容易入睡了；
又被吓醒；

尽量不去想了；
可是脑子不听话；
种种的画面出现在脑海里；

真的真的觉得人生啊。。
怎么那么戏剧化；
唉。。
别想那么多；
珍惜身边的最亲；
这是最重要的；

==伤心==

2010-01-24T00:56:00.003+08:00

今天是星期六；
一切都和平时一样，起身，上班，监督考试；
监督中，还抓了一个学生作弊；
真难过，为什麽要作弊；

四点半，监督完毕；
走回取车的方向；
看了看电话，怎么多了那么多未接来电；
拨回如花三，她的语气听来不是那么好；
直接就问她什么事了？她告诉我一个坏消息；
我们的小如花的父亲过世了。。。。。
真的很伤心难过，一切都太突然了，还接受不来；
想一想，拨了一通电话给小如花，她一开口就哭不停了，
为了安慰她，我忍了不让眼泪流下；
放工回家的路上，一边驾车，眼泪一直流；
（都忍不住了，说真的，驾车流泪，真的很难驾）；

真心希望小如花坚强，乐观，好好照顾自己。。
珍惜身边的每一个人。。。

Awaiting for A loNg hoLid@ys

2010-01-22T10:49:00.002+08:00

I am here to wait for the holidays,not because of CNY. I cannot feel any CNY mood,everything just like normal. I am happy to wait to meet my family, my old frens,my loved....=)

My BELOVED FAMILY: i love to spend time with all of them during CNY, the situation of my house is Fullhouse. During the bed time, we have to book/reserve a sleeping place or the best way is better sleep early..hehe..I like the moment when we on bed, sure will have a chit chat n laughter s first..then my mum will awake n join us..until she said:"eh, don't chat anymore, i have to wake up early in the next day."...

MY LOVED: i like to spend time with u during the time he come back from work..sure he will smile with me first,actually i know he is tired but he still smiling face! Then he will require a kiss from me,but mostly i refuse. You know why, just because he haven't take bath yet..

MY DEAR JI MUI's: i much much more excited to have a chit chat with u all. By the growing up of age, the gathering time is getting lesser n lesser due to each other has their own life,partner...we can even match a time n sit down n chat. But luckily, we still can maintain our FRIENDSHIP until now. THUMBS UP to our FRIENDSHIP..almost 10 years time le...=)

wait...wait...wait...i will spend my time wisely within this 2 weeks holiday....yeah!

Stay OR Leave?

2010-01-19T10:35:00.002+08:00

I hate to make decision. Once i settle down, i am lazy to change my current status. After this short semester, i really have to think about it.

He asked me to come back but now i just wanna step into my job, is not so responsible to leave without learning anything from here. At least i gain some teaching experience before leaving.

Hmmm...i know is hard to maintain a distance relationship but i think i can do it within a year. I hope i can be successful one day! I want to earn $ n get all the stuffs that i want to own...hehehe!

Be, give me some time, just like u mentioned before..We work hard together to deserve a better living...

Lecturing is a challenge job?

2010-01-08T15:30:00.000+08:00

For some people, they will say that lecturing is a easy and boring job. But for me, the only part of challenging is the way u give lecture to your lovely students. They are some questions in my mind when conduct a lecture.

1. Do they understand?
2. How to make a lecture more interesting?
3. How to lengthen a lecture?

I had already finished my Second Semester teaching in TARC but i still cant really handle well of my lovely students. They are so ego in some particular case. I asked one of the class rep "actually u all understand?" He answered that they learned it before during 1st semester. OMG,so they can show their boring face during the class, talk in class, sleep in class???? I nearly want to give up them, but some students show their willingness to learn. So what to do? I only can be patient during the lecture and tutorial.

One of my colleague was asking me whether interested in teaching AutoCAD? Erm, actually untill now i still do not know what is my strength area? I worry that i cannot handle well. But he told me late or early u also will ask to in charge it. Haiz...hope that i quickly can find out what is my strength area in this case..

Well, now, all my lovely students are having their study week and they prepare to sit for examination next week. I hope that they can answer well in this paper. Good luck to my lovely students.

2010 New Year..New Target..New,nEw,neW

2010-01-06T09:42:00.000+08:00

Welcome to the year 2O1O! Any planning? Any targets? (as usual people will ask so)

Erm....for me, i have a lots of planning and target to aim. But the thing is whether can achhieve or not. Without the action, all the dreams also cannot come true. I want to step in the perfect life in terms of enjoying.

Well, what is my planning?

1. I plan to study at oversea (either Australia or UK)
2. I plan to make some changes on my career (more challenge job)
3. I plan to marry......haha! NO WAY...=)

Any targets?

1. My first LV bag
2. Canon DSLR
3. RM 30K in 5 years time (seem like impossible to make it)

Seriously, I really hope that I have a good career in future, a caring partner in my life and of course the most important is my First Bucket of $GOLD$.

All those above are my aim of target n plan in year 2o1O. I am sure i can identify them in year 2O15...W@iting...

At last, i am here to wish all my ji mui, friends, loved, family --> good fortune ahead in the year 2010...

期待三年后你给我的幸福

2009-12-23T12:00:00.000+08:00

这句话出自他的口中，有点难以置信，但是又很感动，眼泪自然的就流了，我也不知为什么！他问我为什么流泪，只不过那一句话而已喔！嘻嘻。。我太脆弱了！

在我还没回去前，他说他有计划要和我商量。我其实已经有预感他要说些什么了。等啊等。。。问了他几次，他还是说没什么啊！自后，我就选择放弃咯！到了最后一天，我要回了，也就是星期日，他说没做工，我当然开心啊！当天吃了早餐，回家看戏，看到一半，电话响了，他说要出去一下！电话一响，我就知道会是这样的，我就不出声的，没回应他！过了五分钟，他发了一个简讯，“XX，对不起”！

星期日的节目就这样泡汤了。。

两点多，他回来了！他很认真的告诉我，他有话要说！经过一段认真的讨论，我发现原来他是有自己的梦想和将来的。只是他不懂怎么和我说而已。。我发现自己对他越来越认真在这段感情了！是好事吗？嘻嘻。。。。期待。。。。

Make a Move to proLong your relationShip

2009-12-21T16:59:00.000+08:00

This week is another holiday in December. I am so excited to go back Penang. First, can meet him, second can meet my ji mui (but cancelled already =( so sad)

I took bus and reached Penang almost mid night. He wait me at the rest area along the highway. Thank you,be! One thing that i can learn is about our relationship.. I like the situation now. We cannot meet always, that why we appreciate the time being together.

Bear in mind=> make a move to prolong your relationship. I can prove that it is a truth..

Future can be predicted?

2009-12-18T23:58:00.003+08:00

The answer is ..............

If u want to have a bright future then u have to set your direction and find out what is your major. Today i met a friend,she told me she almost spend all of her salary. (actually almost same with me) She said that is not the way to keep a bright future, must think the possible way to come out with a solution. She is a smart girl, she likes to socialize with others, her talent is in communication. I like the way she doing now. She enjoys her life very much, full with activities.

We sat down had a drink for almost 2 hours. We talked about our future. She had an idea to do a part time, she share her ideas with me, really thank to her. I hope i can join her plan, now we are on the planning stages to start it. We both start to search more information and save the modal first. After half year or one year, we can start it on time. I know it is very hard to start but at least try lo.

My goal is NEVER TRY NEVER KNOW....No doubt once the idea comes out...

Go!Go!Go!................................

~I like December month~

2009-12-05T23:53:00.001+08:00

28th of Nov, 29th of Nov, 30th of Nov..........Yeah,warm welcome the 1st of Dec

I likes the month of December...full with public holidays...X'mas eve, New year eve......

With the joy, i hope everyone same with me, have a great time with your beloved....

Hooray Holiday....

2009-12-05T23:43:00.000+08:00

Here comes the holiday.....

Early time, i already booked for the flight ticket and decided to go back Penang to find HIM. During this holiday, we just spend the time together, go for movie, go for dinner...etc

I found that happy time always passed in flying time. Sunday is coming, i need to back to KL at 9pm. He seem like very sad but i know he just pretend his moody. Be...no choice, i also not willing to do so, but in terms of living, i have to do that at last. Hope you can understood my situation. Same to you, right?

First of Working D@y

2009-12-05T23:31:00.000+08:00

Early in the morning, i need to wake up at 6:30am,OMG, i am not get used to it, because i already been lazy worm for half years. But, no choice, i have to wake up at last to get ready to work. Take bath, Tidy up myself, Breakfast...all these took around one hour to complete.

On the way to work, my mood just neutral,nothing special. I went to register at HR Department, after a briefing, i am heading to School of Technology and register to the office again. After a short introduction, the lady bring me up to my office room. Erm....really unexpected because almost 8 lecturers share in one room. I met a strange lecturer. He is quite old and full with teaching experiences. But, he is very quiet, i cant even communicate with him. Even though, i want to greet with him, he just pretend like not seeing me. So, fed up at last.

Luckily, i saw a friendly face there. He is a guy who same interview session with me last time. I go and chit chat with him, have lunch together...I feel like i found someone......can talk, can communicate, not a big gap....

Thanks God again......

New Start of NOVEMBER

2009-12-05T23:18:00.000+08:00

2nd of November is a special day for me. That is my first job after master graduation. Before that, i already tried a lots of searches and interviews but failed. At that moment, i really felt disappointed and almost gave up. Luckily, my phone rang and there was a call from Tunku Abdul Rahman College (TARc). Actually i also unexpected i will become a lecturer, but i just gave a try to myself. "Never Try Never Know"......

I passed all the interviews, i quite confident with this job, 70% sure i can get it. Thanks God, finally i get it. The problem is i have to leave Penang n HIM. After a long consideration and discussion with HIM, he is a considerate Boy Friend,he gives a lots of encourages and supports. So, at last, i choose to work in KL temporarily. If can transfer, one day i will back to Penang again.

The day is around the corner, i get ready to leave. He accompanies me come over here and he sacrify himself and back to Penang by bus. He told me that he already been 10 years never take bus. So, because of me, he did it without any complaints. Give a big clap to HIM. I will appreciate this relationship. Hope both of us can maintain it, unless any unfortunate happened on us.

God Bless.........

黄素镓怎么了？

2009-08-17T18:50:00.000+08:00

她怎么了？
为什么每次都拿不定主意的呢？
她的耳朵太薄了，常被别人受影响，就那一句话，就可以轻易的动摇她的毅力；
她不是不想，而是不知怎么表达自己想要的是什么；
她是个不适合做决定的人；那么容易就改变；
她不够自信，有点粗心；
她应该都表达自己想要的，积极一点的去追求梦想，那样才有成功的一天；

嫁个有钱人是幸福的吗？

2009-06-03T11:40:00.000+08:00

嫁个有钱人都是每个小女生梦寐以求的；
但是要想清楚，那是幸福的选择吗？
有钱并不代表幸福的；

每个男人一旦有了钱就会作怪了；
要嫁个有钱人是可以，当然，也要看那个男人对你好不好？
男人的家庭背景是如何?
结婚是两个人的事,任何人都不可以插手(包括家人)
千万不要因为他有钱而选择嫁给他;
那是个很笨的想法和态度;

幸福真的很重要...
我真的很希望我身边的每一个人都过的幸福快乐....

冻过水@假期

2009-05-05T00:39:00.000+08:00

五月一号是劳动节，期待已久的假日；
好不容易才等到没做工的一天，也是唯一的假日；
我们已约好早上出发去---〉金马伦
这是我和他的第一个俩人假日，所以特别珍惜；
一早他把我叫醒了，赖床的我也听话的准备；
呀呼。。开开心心出门了。。
我们先去吃早餐，然后就直匆目的地；
出了tol，不好的事情发生了，车子出了一些毛病；
距离目的地只差一座山而已，眼看快到了，尽然发生这样扫兴的事；
最后，金马伦都没机会搭进，反而为了那辆车忙了一整天；
更糟的事，车子还被拖车拖回槟城修理，还花了一笔怨妄钱；
在意想不到的事，我和他要坐在车上（被拖着）回槟城，这真是人生第一次！
这么的假日就这样白白得浪费了。。。

最后的聚餐

2009-04-25T00:39:00.000+08:00

心情真的很复杂；
离开的时间越来越接近了；
舍不得当然是有的；
所以决定来个聚餐，聊聊；
地点----〉Little Cottage II
一样的环境，一样的食物；
但是。。
不一样的朋友，不一样的话题；
以前是和茹花姐妹们；
今天是屋友；
大家都和得来，谈得来；
她们的口头弹真像茹花三，茹花五都喜欢用《CB》这两个子字；
太好笑了。。。
相处了一年，虽然不是很长的时间；
但是至少曾经拥有美好的回忆；
谢谢你们哦！

梦想

2009-04-18T23:57:00.000+08:00

到底梦想的定义是什么呢？
真的失去了方向。。
还剩下一个月，就要向那熟悉的校园挥挥手了
之后的计划呢？。。。
想有个假期旅行，好好享受，放松自己。。
到处走走看看的，感受不同的环境。。
可是一直都找不到一个合适人选。。（失望）
每次只是口头说而已；都没真正去实现；
梦想啊梦想，你到底在那里啊？

End of Journey Part of My Life

2009-03-26T04:55:00.000+08:00

There is still leave around one and a half month for me to complete my school life in Uni. I really hope that there will be something useful come out in life. But it seem like none. I did not saw any bright future now. Hard to decide future in a short time.

Can anyone give me some guidance? I really feel sigh.

误会

2009-03-17T21:54:00.000+08:00

今天的心情很差，很低落！一切都是误会，我真的很生气自己，为什么？大家都有错，但是为什么好像只有我错呢？一句对不起也没有！现在的我想的都是不好的事情，如果我下定决心了，我真的会放弃。

为什么每次都是我在低头的？我没有错！我没有错，我真的很想大大声的告诉你，我没有错！

压力

2009-03-12T11:23:00.000+08:00

最近都为了功课而忙，好烦哦，感觉时间都不够用！还有两个星期就快考试了，什么都没准备！上个星期回家休息了几天，快乐时光总是很快过了，真想一切都停留着。很怀念家人聚在一起，谈天说地的，好开心！

回到槟城了，一踏进房门，就有一股无形中的压力，一点精神也没有，脑袋一片空白。真的很怕我的作业都做不完，现在有六样作业要完成，我也不知怎么办，唯有一直在赶。

我和他见面的次数也越来越少了，反而我也没去在意了，太多东西了，我真的顾虑不来。他没埋怨，反而他还鼓励我！真的谢谢他的体谅！虽然距离不是很远，但是那段路途，真的让我很累。我想他也和我一样吧！

好想这一切赶快的过去。我真的好想休息，回家真舒服！

Reformation 2009

2009-03-01T12:29:00.000+08:00

Recently, i am so stress on my homework...Everyday came back from school and stay at the room with my slow speed laptop..one day i really will smash it and damp it into dustbin...after formating it, it seem like no improvement. .hate it

So boring in room, what should i do? first, i learn for make up on my own, haha...its really fun to wait for the reformation of myself. after make up, photograph section is started..its really different, not look like me anymore. look more charming ?haha..let's your do some critic and comment on it..

sometimes i think that it's work to reduce the stress and time flies very fast. Here are some photo to share...photo on myself la...am i crazy? haha......anyway having fun

人与人@相处

2009-02-23T12:37:00.000+08:00

说实际的，人与人相处真的不容易！就开始了与人交往，相处的过程。人人都希望自己受欢迎，和他人和睦相处，都喜欢同人客气谈话，又有谁爱整日愁眉苦脸，怒气冲冲像个炸弹的人?要和他人、集体和睦同处，首先要尊重他人，不能取笑别人的弱点。与人相处重要的是真诚，要用一颗真诚的心与他人共处，对待他人。人与人的相处还需要信任，多疑是误解和忧患的红娘。人与人之间的信任是开启彼此心扉的钥匙，多一份信任，多一份诚挚，也就多了一个朋友，多了一个和睦相处的人。

一年半的感情，我真的开始觉得很累了，老是我迁就他，他的想法总是认为我都要听他的话。他是那种不可以被人说的，也许他不接受别人对他的批评吧！老是告诉他，不要喝那么多酒，不要抽那么都烟。。。可是他都不把我的话当一回事的，等到有事了，他才会听进去。我真的有点累了。。

这几天，我都在发小姐脾气，他一点都不会哄人的，只会问为什么，为什么。我真的很讨厌被人一直问我为什么，有些事，不是一句为什么，就可以得到答案，真的很难为人！现在的我也不知道自己需要怎样的对象，朋友告诉我，：“只要他对你好就好了，不要要求那么高，不要选太多."其实我并没在选，可是我就是在意他的一切一切。。

人生就是那么的烦，有也烦，没也烦。对他，我希望自己不要太投入在感情方面。好好享受现在的一切生活。

衷心祝福

2009-02-22T12:12:00.000+08:00

昨晚收到如花四的简讯，她回复单身了！当时真的很意外，因为没想到那么快！过年时，我们只是聊过一下，所以知道她和MR。RIGHT 相处出些小毛病！我想如花四不是为了这么小事而分开吧！也许如花四还没遇到适合自己的另一半，虽然有些感情是短暂得，但我相信那个甜蜜过程还是存在的！

说真的，要找个真正适合自己的对象真的很难！我想真的没有十全十美的！“相处”和“沟通”就是感情上的绊脚石。有些事真的要自己掌握，争取!碚养感情真的需要很多时间,我觉得来得有点不实际!唉....感情的事很难去捉摸!

衷心祝福大家幸福快乐........

情人节快乐

2009-02-16T15:59:00.000+08:00

2月14日的情人节，一般对所有情侣来说都值得庆祝的！对方都会为心爱的另一半准备礼物！而我呢？也只是频频的过了我和他第二年的情人节，也许这对我们来说还新吧，所以还是会出去吃情人套餐，和准备小礼物！

我觉得今年的情人节，有点搞笑的点。原本我星期五就打算过去他家（因为过了十二点就是情人节嘛）。但是他却告诉我他要出去找人喔，叫我迟些才过去他家。我就觉得奇怪，怎么他第一次这样和我说话的。我就没想到他为了礼物所以才骗我。害我生气他，衰人，又不和我解释！

星期六等他打来找我，我才回去，等啊等，电话响了，他说多五分钟就放工了，（其实我一早就准备好了，哈）。回到他家，准备一下，我们就出门了。还好早出门，auto city人不是很多，我们选了fish market manhantthen。嗯，食物还不错啦！可是奇怪的我，每次temperature都和别人不一样，进到里面，我还是觉得里面很热，还冒汗！他说蜡烛吹了，就不热了。结果还是没那么做啦！在忽凉忽热的情况下，吃完套餐！看到店员为情侣拍照，心里想要得不得了！可是店员都没介绍这个配套，害我们都错过了！唉。。好可惜哦！

吃饱了，就在那儿走走，之后他问我还有地方想去吗？我也想不出，就说没有啊！他想了想，就说我们去海边，好吗？我都没意见就说好咯。可是久没去的他，竟然走错路，结果只是去“游车河”。

回到家，大家都没把礼物拿出来，差不多要十二点了，我才给他我的礼物，很开心，他和我说了一声谢谢！而他也没第一时间拿礼物给我，在我躺在床要睡得那时，他才拿礼物给我，真是气死人！

情人节就这样轻轻松松的过了！

圣诞节快乐

2009-01-02T19:33:00.000+08:00

其实我还蛮期待这个圣诞节的，我一心想到可以和他一起过就很开心了！很多朋友都问我怎样庆祝啊？我还没问他，就告诉朋友可能会去吃个浪漫晚餐，之后去看看烟花吧！这都是我自己单方面的想而已。圣诞前夕，我要开车去学校，怎么知车出了问题，就打给他，他说今晚过来看看，我就以为反正都在槟城了，应该会在这里庆祝吧！等他放工过来都八点多了，修理的来都九点多了，我问他要回去还是怎样，结果他说要回去。圣诞前夕嘛，多多少少也会塞车，回到他家都十点多了。早有预感圣诞前夕要在他家过了，真的！冲好凉出来，他告诉好像要生病了。结果就去大牌挡吃云吞面就回家睡觉了。

我没发脾气，因为生病嘛，今天没得庆祝还有明天啊。隔天他没去上班，然后早上我们去吃个早餐，之后就拿车去修理。他说还是不舒服，然后陪他去看医生。睡了一个下午，他告诉我今晚不能去吃浪漫晚餐了，听了，就点点头，就坐在电脑前。他知我很不开心了，他就说走换衣出去吃。我说不要啦，生病怎样去喔！听我这么说他又睡回去了。浪漫晚餐“冻过水”。。

可能是沟通出了问题吧。。

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新年前夕也是一样，可是比圣诞前夕好一些。他说和朋友去pub倒数喔，我说好啊，就去了，到了那边很多人，很挤。我一点都很不自在，毕竟不是我的朋友，多多少少会有点差别。没办法啦，来到了就要好好的玩。但是我真的参不下咯，最后还被他的朋友灌醉了。很讨厌。。。

一月一号，他没做工也没告诉我，睡醒已经十二点了。我问他有没有做工，他答我等下要油漆，那就是没有咯！吃午餐回来就呆在家，至到旁晚，他说有朋友进新家，请吃，要载他妈妈去。我就觉得奇怪，为什么他妈也去的。他也没告诉我那是谁的朋友。到了那边，他叫我陪他妈妈下去，老是这样的。没关系，坐下来吃东西时，他妈突然说：“Eh，拿两张tissue给我”。我听了很不爽了，他妈知道我的名字的啊，为什么不叫我名呢？听到这样的语气我真的很不喜欢了。一整晚静静的坐着那儿。。他妈和朋友讲话，而他就和朋友讲话，我坐在一边东张西望的，好像来错了地方！他知道闷到我，为什么去之前也不告诉我是怎样的场合呢。。

唉。。我真的没话说了！今早就过来宿舍冷静几天。。。

Happy Wedding

2008-12-14T13:02:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i went to dinner with be, his friend's wedding,actually i also know them, so wont so bore for me! I really can feel their happiness in this wedding. A lot of friends greeting to this couple. They all very friendly. Among his friends,just leave him havent get marry,so they will ask when is our turn? Then both of us just keep smiling,no respond. This kind of question very complicated to answer, u know? For me,i wont get married right now. Is not ready for me,and he also not even touch such words with me. So i wont feel pressure. Actually my target age to get married is 30 years old. But, if early 2-3 years is okay for me..hehe! I feel that me and be right now already happiness..

When i attend their wedding, really can feel the joy and happiness. After wedding dinner, a gang of friends went to pub continue another party. Normally, after dinner bride and bridegroom, sure will feel tired but they still join us there. So is really getting fun. Because the night still young...

Happy Wedding and Hope they live happily ever after....

好想念老朋友

2008-12-08T12:45:00.000+08:00

老朋友都在那里？好久都没有看到老朋友了，好想念你们哦！很久都没出来聚一聚了！大家都有自己的生活，难免会比较难筹时间了。工作的工作，读书的读书，拍拖的拍拖。

如花一：还好我们都还有联络，只是找不到适合的时间见面而已！

如花三：最后一次和你通电话应该是上个月吧！之后就好像人间蒸发了！找你出去，都被拒绝两

次了！

如花四：最后一次见面应该是马来人过年那个月吧！最近发信息给你，你都没回了，要不然就隔

很久才回，都不知你发生什麽事！有空联络一下嘛！

如花五：最后一次见你应该是如花三的生日吧！最近才收到你的信息说你十二月份有回来。

想当年，中学时期，大家相聚的时间都好多过在家。放学回到家，就驾着摩多去找朋友，补习完了，第一时间就去朋友家，晚上就去喝茶。这样的生活多姿多彩，很享受，都没什么烦恼！

而现在呢？烦恼也越来越多了，再也不是青春少女了！个有个的生活了！再忙也好，希望大家都可以联一联，见一见，谈一谈！

December Holidays

2008-12-07T14:26:00.000+08:00

Hooray! Is time for holiday..sound like very happy. But that is not my happy holiday. During this holiday, i have to do my dissertation homework. What i am doing now, i am not very sure is right or wrong, i just do it. I dont care anymore,because time flies very fast, i cant return back. There was no time for me to do that.

Holiday means that my hostel is empty, there was noone around,everyone went back to enjoy their holiday already. Just leave me. I am so scared. So i have to go to be house. I really dont like. One thing is tiring, because everyday i have to drive a long journey from BM to penang, from penang to BM,somemore traffic jam. SHIT!

I had already stayed his house for one week. Monday to Friday, i wont feel so bored. But right now is saturday and coming sunday, i have to stay at house, sit down in front of laptop, then do nothing. I have to wait untill he come back from work, then only i can go out. It's damn boring ,u know?But he never understood, when he came back already tired, then sleep early,leave me again. I dont know how to describe that feeling. Is not angry..I cant find a word to describe it.

Long time i did not go for movie,shopping....just stay at house, at night go to yam cha with his friends. Going out yam cha? Sound like okay,but i also just sit there, i hear what they said. I think next week i will going back my own hostel, although i am alone,but is more freedom for me.

Maybe we altogether already 1 and a half year, so there was nomore surprising and hapiness. Just a normal!

Now, i just like find no way for me to exit. I am losed and stoped there.

好无头绪+茫然

2008-11-12T09:54:00.000+08:00

现在的我已经是在硕士学位了，对于这个学位，我真的不知争扎了多久，我考虑了很久才做决定的。之前烦经济上的问题，现在解决了，又烦读书的时候了。我真的不知自己在做些什么，突然觉得，我什么都没有，脑袋是空的，一些知识也没有。

对于这次的考试，我真的不知自己在考什么东西，我只背背背，读读读。。突然觉得这样的生活好讨厌，可是身边的朋友就会告诉我，考试是这样的啦！哎。。讨厌！还有一个星期就要考完了，心想还可以放假一个月，可是呢，放假就等于没有假，因为我已经被安排放假要做功课。又要去访问，又要做小丑那样，跑来跑去了。又还要去做实验。。一个女生要去那么大范围做事，突然觉得很恐怖，又是一个人。

最近，有个“伊拉克”的同学对我还蛮好的. 有一次在图书馆,刚好遇见他,他其实是在做功课的,但是他看到我,就会问你要找什么?需要帮忙吗?我说没什么,不知为什么这几本书都找不到的,结果他就放下他的功课,帮我找了很久,还让他敲到自己, 真不好意思. 我明明都说不用了啊! 但是还是要谢谢他的一番好意啦!

还没考试之前,他会传简讯问我,温习功课到怎样了啊? 还有每一次考完试，我也都会收到他的简讯.

他都会问"考试考的怎么样啊？一定要老实告诉我哦."

现在已经考完了两科,可是我都不是很会作答,所以就和他说考的不是很好咯!

他就会说些鼓励的话,说什么没关系啦,不要想那么多啦!下次要加油哦!..之类的话..哈哈!还蛮感动的!但是我们是不同宗教信仰的,在加上我对回教人一点好印象也没有.所以才让我没想那么多无谓的事.年纪也不小了,在这方面也有不同的想法.

不被动摇的理由还是因为be ,还是be比他早问,哈哈,现在还没有人可以代替be在我心中的位子.他对我太好了,让我没去想那么多. Love you!我会加油的,好好的对自己!

回家记

2008-10-28T12:46:00.000+08:00

这一次回subang，这个路程都是我负责驾车。爸妈也老了，没什么能驾，所以就由我来驾,妈在旁边做军师.这次回是刚好遇到印度人新年,四姐也回,所以就回去小小的聚会. 这一次回,大家都没去shopping,反而只待在家而已. 还好啦,不会很闷,在家一直吃喝,谈天咯!也没什么特别啦!

很快的,三天就过去了,我和爸就驾车回,四姐就搭早上的巴士回,二姐也回了.妈妈就没跟回,她要到过年才回来了. 她还吩咐我,接近过年时,和爸去载她回来,想到那路程就有点怕怕. 四个小时的路程耶..和爸又没什么话题,真的会被闷死. 哈哈...

《前度的骚扰》

2008-10-20T19:05:00.001+08:00

最近每次半夜都会被无名史的电话而被吵醒。很讨厌，好不容易才入睡就被吵醒。终于一次我忍无可忍了，我就接了那通电话。天啊！一听，我真的后悔了。。原来是以前的他，他竟然当作喏无其事的和我谈天，那一刻我真的很想挎掉电话。我没讨厌他，而是对他反感了！他说什么，我也只是，哦，哦，哦。。他就说了一个很冷的笑话，他问我知不知道，哦，是什么吗？我就没答他，他说哦蕃薯啊，他说完就在那儿笑，我笑也笑不出，还好他会做人，说不打扰，就挂了。过后就不断的传简讯给我，我真的觉得他有问题的，突然觉得我真的不认识他了。已经一年多了，我真的不想和他再有什么瓜葛了。我对现在的be很满意，虽然之前有过冷战，可是那时一年多来得第二次而已。我真的希望他不要在浪费时间在我身上了，可是他告诉我，他不会在去找新对象了，我心在想，我已经劝你了，你不找是你的事，我不会因为这样而内疚了。。还是祝福他吧！

New Life

2008-10-20T18:49:00.000+08:00

I really hope that i have an enjoyable life, the way of joy and happiness around me. Therefore, i went to trim my hair yesterday. Not an impulse for me. I just wanna trim it and make it lighter and make me feel fresh.

Before that, me and him have a cold war. U know how many days to settle down the cold war? Around two and a half days. Its unbelievable for me,because before that it did not happen,this is the serious 1. I hate that feeling. The cold war just ended yesterday. I really really hope it wont happen again anymore forever and ever...cold war keep me away, please! I want a happy life...Cheer Up,babe....i will appreciate it...Thanks God,finally the cold war is ended....

Be patient....

2008-10-17T13:01:00.000+08:00

Recently, i meet up a friend at my hostel. Actually both of us also further master study, but then we are in different field so seldom meet up each other.

The first when he saw me,he said: hey saw chia,why u look so old already and u look so tired?
Then i said: really?Ya,maybe because of tired,and always sleep late in night,so i am look old..so sad!

What he said is truth. Sometime i really feel tired. Need to care my study, need to care about him, need to care about my family..so many things to care. Sometime, i am full with my works,but then everyweek still need to go back his home. Actually i dont like that,why dont him come and find me?I have a lot of blame now.

Yesterday, i came to his house, then at night we go to eat dinner together, after finish eating, on the way back home, he told me tomorrow have an wedding dinner need to attend. I very hate people last minutes only told me, i didt prepare anythings, i didt bring my dress. What can i do?So when i heard that i just keep quiet in the car,before that we talk a lots and laughing. Suddenly,everything changed.But is not my fault. He said he forgot to inform me then i said ok and keep quiet there.

When reached home, he asked me izit angry? I said NO. Then he said really?What the hell of him?Then he just straight forward to his computer and do his things. Ok,fine,since not my fault, i wont say sorry. The problems is he just say forgot to inform me, he didt say sorry to me.

Early in the morning, before he went to work,he will give me a good bye kiss and hug hug. But today.....nothing from him. Fine,i dont care anymore. I also dont know later how i gonna attend that wedding dinner...Why everything have to listen to him?

I dont like my lifestyle now. I want something enjoy, relaxing...i need a rest and stop pit.

我的心好累，好累，好累哦！

2008-09-17T18:16:00.000+08:00

不懂我又怎么了，觉得自己好像倒回去从前一样，那么的自闭（不爱说话了）。。。
我真的很讨厌这样的自己，我很想开朗，很想健谈，很想开心得生活！
可是为什么我会为了一些小事而不爽，会发脾气，会静静不说话呢？

最近被堆积如山的功课烦死了，真的太多了！而且都不知从何下手。对我来说是适应不来的。我真的很想有个可以听我诉诉苦的朋友，然后为我分解，为我分析，为我分担！我很怕晚上那段时间，自己一个人在房间，对着那张床，翻来翻去，无论怎样都睡不好。已经很多天都睡不好了，所以脾气会有点爆燥。

有时自己会无端端的坐在那儿，哭了出来！我自己也搞不懂自己要什么！我觉得be不在是我的倾诉对象了，可能be做工也累了，所以也不会多说了！我也不想烦他了，最近be打来，我也只是说，"嗯，哦，是啊。。"然后就关电话了. 我也不去想这么多了,也许他也没什么吧!

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊...........

毕业了。。

2008-08-19T19:29:00.000+08:00

终于都毕业了，那天真的很开心，感觉上我的毕业典礼很丰富也很热闹。除了我家人，我亲戚也出席我那天的毕业典礼。真的很感动，我觉得我的最夸张的了。毕业就这样过去了，和朋友相聚的时间也不多，只是短短的几个小时，之后回家的回家，会酒店的就会酒店，也没真正的聊天，但是我还是会很珍惜。现在的我就忙着功课，虽然毕业了，多数朋友都出来社会做工赚钱了，而我呢还继续在读下去，朋友也没几个。唉。。

还好这里还有bb陪我，要不然就闷死了。谢谢给我车用，要不然我做功课也会有点麻烦了。没关系啦，我对自己说，还有一年而已，读完了，不知要不要做工，我姐都说我好命，要读就要努力的读下去，要不然家人会很失望咯！素镓！你一定可以的，加油！

我们在一起一年了

2008-07-24T11:06:00.000+08:00

时间过的真快啊，我和bb已经在一起一年了！那天我们反而都没庆祝耶，只是在家吃饭！你们认为我会不开心吗？当然是会啦，换成是别人，我想早就为了这件事而吵架了，辛好bb有个体谅的女朋友，那就是我啦，哈哈！

可能bb不习惯庆祝吧，所以我也没说什么，因为刚好那天他妈煮饭了，所以就在家吃咯！

与他在一起这段时间，真的没怎样不开心，每次我不开心，他就会问我为什么静静啊，然后我就会告诉他了。有时他还会逗我开心，还会向我撒娇, 真的太可爱了! 我们都不曾大声的吵架,有也是大家静静不说话而已! 可是过不久就没事了! 他让我, 我也让他! So sweet am i .....

真心得希望我们可以快乐得生活每一天!

新的开始，新的生活，新的自己

2008-07-24T10:52:00.000+08:00

一切都从新开始了，现在的我已经回复校园的日子了，其实也没什么特别啦，我都还习惯这里的生活，习惯那些教书方式！至于功课上呢，就有点不一样了，全都要靠自己的努力去争取。对我来说会有点辛苦，但是也没办法，都要试着去尝试新的一切。我没对自己抱着很大的希望，只要求进步而已。我想有个特别的自己，我想有个独立的自己，我想有个不同凡响的自己！我真的不想因为一些小事而影响我的心情和情绪，我真的太情绪化了。有时又觉得自己有不一样了，有了少许的改变。唉！对于自己，我真的太矛盾了！

我有個不開心的生日

2008-07-01T15:55:00.000+08:00

不知不覺又一年了,時間過得真快,很想回到過去,但是這是不可能得事!今年也沒什么特别庆祝，只是出去外面吃顿饭而已，然后买了两瓶酒回家喝！就这样过了我２３岁的生日，但是我也知足了！也没有因为这样马虎的庆祝而不开心！反而是家人那方面，我打算继续读书了，我和她们讨论过了，他们说不必烦钱那边的事，那我就放心了，我就向老板说我做到这个月就没做了！

我交了信，他们就说我没和他们讨论，我真的不知怎么说，和他们沟通不来了！既使和他们说了，他们也不明白，他们问了又问，同样的问题，我也不知要怎么答！也许是我的问题吧！我觉得自己又变成好像以前那样自闭了，不大爱说话了，不知身边的朋友有没有查觉到呢？

毕业等于失业吗？

2008-04-23T00:16:00.000+08:00

很开心哦，自己终于都毕业了，不必在烦考试，不必在对着那一罗罗的功课！超爽的。。但是呢？问题也跟着来了。

我现在好迷茫哦，很没有方向感，不懂自己要些什么，不懂自己适合什么，不懂自己要住那里。要工作还是继续读下去？要留在槟城还是吉隆坡？我真的很想有人为我按排这一切事物。刚从kl回来penang，而boy又没什么陪我了，朋友也回到七七八八了，朋友也开始做工了，所以整个人觉得好寂寞。我又不敢告诉boy，我在这里的感受，我不想烦他，因为最近他做工很压力，被工人，被老板气，做到很不开心！其实我在想，是不是和我在一起的男生都会在工作上遇到不顺利的事？以前的他也是这样，现在boy也遇到这样。我真的好难过哦！有时我自己会唉声叹气的， boy就会问我为什么唉声叹气啊？我真的答不出！

我没有梦想，更不用说什么前途了！拿不定主意的我，怎么会有好的前途呢？该继续读书吗？还是出来社会找工呢？

《我不哭》

2008-04-23T00:02:00.000+08:00

其实我心里有数
我们都注定孤独
谁能走完这条路
我知道你的难处
你害怕拥有全部
终于你还是（选择）退出
就是这样结束
好过谁被谁辜负
至少把最美好的留住
我不哭也不觉得苦
我忍住因为我在乎
就算我 ( 最后) 只能留给你
一点点 (的) 祝福
我不哭也不觉得苦
我忍住
因为我真的在乎
虽然一颗心
反反覆覆
那是因为
我是真的在乎

Choir Performance

2008-03-29T12:12:00.000+08:00

Today is my big day ! From the beginning, i am not so interested in singing, that is because my university unit not enough, so i have to take it to fulfill my unit. After joining the choir, i found that it is really fun, i learn a lot from them. Somemore the lecturer, MISS ANDY, really very nice, she can communicate with us very well, if anything happen, she will help us to solve it, i feel that we just like a big family in this choir group.

After the performance, i feel sad because i am final year student, i will leave the school forever n ever, unless i proceed my master study there! I will miss them...especially those friends that we spend our time together.

Now, I like singing very much.................

Miss Andy miss you......

After performance......

H.B.P gang......posing

With theatre group......

情感联络站

2008-03-26T11:44:00.000+08:00

在一个你我熟悉的地方
有着你我喜欢吃的早餐
咖啡店的老板他们的笑容都是一个模样
在这个你我熟悉的脸庞
它仿佛就是一个情感的联络站
冲一杯浓浓的咖啡谈一谈自己的方向
三两个朋友都来喝一杯
无形中又把距离给拉短
道路上车辆横冲又直撞
十字路口有谁在旁徨
你看不清你自己也算是平常
KOPI-O KOPI-O
喝一杯浓浓的KOPI-O
KOPI-O KOPI-O
把不愉快的事情都遗忘
在这个你我生活的地方
有着我们共同的理想
让脚步匆匆又忙忙一起把明天开创

独立@一人

2008-03-21T17:03:00.000+08:00

今早起身,虽然半夜下雨会是很好睡得,但是我都睡不下了,最近都很早起床,可能已经习惯了吧!今天没上课所以我想要去做passport咯!我就和他说我要去做passport,他就问我和谁去.我就说一个人啊!他就说不要啦,找朋友陪啦!我觉得不好意思,你去做passport还要人等你,我觉得太麻烦了!所以怎样都好,都要学会自己一个人搭巴士!因为以后我也要一个人去做工什么的!

那个bus driver忘了停我在那个站,幸好我走去说:"abang! saya nak pergi jabatan imigresen lah".他就说"oh..betul la,sudah lupa!hehe.."更好笑得是去到那边还遇到我的housemate,真的好巧哦!所以一个人在那边等也不会怕,因为遇到认识的.

要出门前,我和他说我要出门了,他也不理我,也没说小心啊什么的!平时他不会那样(除非他生气咯)!我觉得他应该是生气我不听话吧,因为他吩咐我不要一个人去,要去的话就要找人陪!因为这是我第一次一个人出门.可能担心吧!可是我就是想学习一个人的时候!其实一个人的感觉还不错,虽然一个人给人的感觉好像很寂寞, 但是我就一边走路一边听歌什么的!嘻嘻...

第二个的可能性,会不会是生气我早上起身,没和他说话呢?也许我还在气他昨天的事,所以今早起身就去厕所,然后他就说他去做工了,我就答他:"嗯"..哎,我也没力气去理这么多了,我也有自己的烦恼!他要说话就说,要生气我就生气啦,我也不能做什么!既使问他是不是生气我,有也说没有啦!

昨晚我们一起吃晚餐,一上车就觉得他的心情好像不是很好!所以我也在车上没什么说话!可能做工被工人气到吧!可是他还是会问我想要去那里吃,要吃什么的!我还是会不习惯他静静的时候,我也会跟着不开心,结果真的,我也静静的吃东西!哎..

回到宿舍就他看戏,上网咯,而我就看报纸!之后他就躺在床上睡着了!我就自己上网看戏啊,找朋友聊天什么的!我在看着"美丽的第七天",有些画面很感人,自己就坐在那边哭!在加上心情不是很好所以就很容易哭了!哈哈!差不多凌城两点了,眼睛也累了,所以就想去找周公!

Pantai Merdeka @ Trip

2008-03-18T11:28:00.000+08:00

今早很早就起身了，因为老师要带我们去pantai merdeka做功课，地方的名字听起来很不错，但是我不是很想去，因为听朋友说那边没什么的，都是“猪”去的地方！学校答应sponsor我们Rm2000的，但是我觉得去这么样的地方都不需要Rm2000咯，一定是他们“吃钱”了。那个学校的bus driver，不知会不会驾的，左摆右摆的，坐了都头晕，想吐！

到了那边，真的很偏僻，觉得batu feringhi还好。老师他们一早就到那边了，安排了我们所要做的东西后，我们就开始动工了，原本想上个厕所得，但是走了那么远，才知道厕所还没开，厕所费又贵，这么样的地方还要收Rm0.30，普通厕所也只不过Rm0.20。

我们一共有五组，我们还以为我们这组可以拿第一名了，因为那个lab的technician说，他帮我们，如果我们拿到第一名，礼篮要分给他一点！哈哈。。结果呢？还不是“猪”拿了！鸡蛋糕他啊，害我们白白开心了一整天，还很尽力去完成！

更惨的是，午餐竟然要用手吃,太不卫生了.我们就去那些马来挡,借汤匙,结果那个人说要买的,真的气死人!午餐是老师驾车出去打包回来得马来饭!真的难吃!

这么样的trip,真的去一次就够了!

在巴士上....

我的组员

无聊@天

2008-03-18T10:43:00.000+08:00

今天是星期六,我原本是要约如花三去走走的,在宿舍有点闷,但是如花三要和如花四回家,所以只好等下个星期六咯,(其实还不懂她们有没有空啦).

这一天我闷到自己在房间学化妆,太无聊了!哈哈...化到一半了,boy call我,我还以为他放工了就不会闷了,原来他说要拿零件去Alor Star修理,他说反正我一个人在宿舍而已,他就叫我一起去咯!因为中午时,我和他投诉说我很闷!关了电话我就赶快去冲凉,准备一下!他半个小时就要到了,害我赶到半死!

上车了,他问我是不是化妆,我就笑笑说,没有啦,刚才咯.....他就继续说"是不是自己在宿舍闷所以自己学化妆?"想不到这样也给他猜到!哈哈.....路途真的很远啊，从槟城去都要两个小时那样！其实那边还好啦，不是我想象中的那么偏僻！只是一路上都可以看到很多的稻田，青青一片！

拿了零件去修理后，我们就去附近吃咯！那边真的很多马来猪，服务又慢，真的“服”了他们！还好我不是住在那里，要不然我真的会疯了！吃完了，我就在车上等boy做东西，差不多从天亮等到天黑，大概一个小时吧！哎。。。星期六的白天就这样过了！

晚上，他朋友约他一起吃晚餐，我们就直接从Alor Star去北海吃他们说的出名“咖哩面”，很可惜我不吃咖哩面的。还不容易等他们吃完了，他们又说要找地方坐下来喝茶！我们又去pacific，他朋友开的G7 cafe坐坐，去到那边，那间店一个人都没有，（意思说没生意了），看了有点可怜.想当年，我们几个如花都有去过的，我还记得是坐“猪木”车，现在那间cafe变成冷清清的。那个老板也是他的朋友还蛮好看得，虽然是有点闷但是还可以看帅哥，所以还好啦！哈哈。。

听起来，我的星期六还过的蛮充实的，但是有点闷咯！

距离

2008-03-12T09:52:00.000+08:00

上个星期是我和家人的gathering，我当然是很开心啊！因为从新年到现在我都没回到家了！可是爸爸不能去，因为刚好那个星期是竞选的时候。还是一样，星期五就搭巴士回，到了车站就在等三姐来载我咯！原本是她先到的，但是她说我还有很久才到，她就去pavillion走走，结果还是要我等回她！

然后她就说大姐和四姐要去aromatherapy按摩，我们就直接过去那边了!之前和四姐说好了,她请我按摩!哈哈..这样就骗到了!这个按摩真的很舒服可是有点尴尬咯,因为要把身上的衣服都脱了,甚至"里面"的也要脱!那边只给了一个disposal underwear而已!超舒服的.....

回到家都快十二点多了!妈妈也睡了,两个侄儿和侄"girl"也都睡了！这一次回去最主要得是看baby little girl的．三天我只呆在家，那里都不想去！就在家谈天什么的！唯一没什么和妈妈谈到，感觉和妈妈有距离了，真的很伤心！开始觉得妈妈偏心了！我真的可以那么觉得！我四姐也那么认为的！我为了这个哭了好几次，因为觉得心里不舒服的，心痛得感觉！是不是我和四姐都没在kl做工／读书所以才会有差距！

以前在selama家的时候，我和妈妈最多话说的，睡觉时也会谈天了才睡得，很想念那段时光！虽然我是那么觉得妈妈偏心，可是我也不能做什么，因为妈妈还是妈妈！我需要的是关心！

怪怪的他

2008-03-05T01:11:00.000+08:00

今天有点累，我也不知自己睡了多久，而他也关灯睡了，我就开眼睛，问他要睡了啊！他说是啊！我看着他拿枕头放在我旁边，是很远的距离，我就问他做么放那么远，他问回我会咩？他这么回我，我真的很不爽，就睡不下了，开着眼睛想东想西了！最后还是起身开电脑写了一篇又一篇！写了之后，心情还算蛮好的，可以睡得下了吧！

最近我觉得他有点怪怪的，昨晚我们一起躺在床上看戏，他就一直按电话，我不小心翻身，他就以为我在偷看他写信息！他还问我做什么！我一看到他这样的反应就开始觉得奇怪了！我也不想去知他在和谁传简讯！他第一次这么样，所以才让我觉得奇怪！如果是普通信息也不需要那么鬼祟的，超讨厌的！

另外一件事：

最近我碰一碰他，他就会闪开，为什么呢？难道我有做错事吗？突然我也觉得好想有自己的空间！

奇怪！

第一次的面试

2008-03-05T00:42:00.000+08:00

今天是我第一次面试哦!其实是算蛮顺利的,只是工钱真的太低了,我怕维持不到在这里的生活费!还好真的有他在,要不然我就要搭巴士去面试了,昨天那间公司打了给我,我就马上打给他了,他就说如果有空就载我去咯!(其实他知道搭巴士是很麻烦的)所以他提早放工咯!真的很感谢他咯!

我们很早就到了可是我又不想太早进去所以就在车上等一下咯!而他就讲我穿太sexy了,也许是我的裙吧,因为是开衩到腿的!我真的没裙子啊,就是唯一的一件!他就很不爽的样子,我也不理了,反正面试而已啦!去大公司真的好麻烦哦,我在那边等了差不多一个小时啊,又冷到发抖(加上紧张吧).面试我的那个是男的uncle(有点失望,haha)!他人很好,都不是很严肃,所以才没那么紧张!他说我不适合这个position,他问我还了apply什么工,我就说banking啊,他就问banking的什么position,我就说credit officer咯!他就说刚好我们的公司有这个position,需要人(好巧哦).他说我可以试试,他说在那里可以学到很多东西! 可是我就说我需要考慮先，他说没问题，想好了才打给他！

其实应该说面试成功一半吧！

Funny Photo ^-^

2008-02-27T14:34:00.000+08:00

Today i have no class then at lunch time i eat with boy because he is on the way go to work. After lunch, lei call me up and say wanna come to find me, she said that her class cancelled already..Then i save the pictures for her lo, because what i send her,all resize already..atually not me resize, i think is the mail resize them!

Then i show her one of the funny picture at pulau jerejak, which is we took it when we jumped, because we never took this kind of picture so we try it! Its really funny! When i saw the picture, automatically i will laugh..haha

I ask lei to see that funny photo, when she saw it she also laughing non-stop...so to make it clearly we edit it..hope jiun dont angry and dont mind ya! If u mind, then i will delete it, ok?

Here is the funny picture:

U.N.B.E.L.I.E.V.A.B.L.E

2008-02-27T13:48:00.000+08:00

为什么会有这么样的人呢？是不是人格问题？还是家庭的灌输方式呢？

而我呢？就是不喜欢和这么样的朋友交朋友，甚至连说句话我也不想！人就是这样，都会以自己的强项来取悦身边的人！取悦别人也有很多方式啊！让人开心得当然是好事，但是如果让人开心了又加上也会让人误会的呢？那当然是很不好咯！如果说的难听点，那就是叫“利用”！

举个例子，我身边有个朋友，一直以来我都对她没两句, 因为我第一眼就觉得我不喜欢她, (可能听多了她的坏话吧!) 一年里都不知有说到话吗? 虽然大家都住在一起! 我觉得她的声音是噪音, 让人听了很不舒服! 她的声音是数一数二的, 大家也这么认同了. 每次她一开口,我就会把我的房门关上! 我的人就是这样, 不喜欢这一类型的朋友! 还好我们没有成为好朋友! 要不然就会让人有话柄了!

最近大家都在忙找工, 当然apply了工, 就会预算到有面试的过程了, 这一些都要为自己打算! 没有transport也是一种问题, 但是就是别利用你的"爹"功去取悦朋友载你去嘛! 还好你的运气都不错, 让你遇到这么样的朋友,为你服侍! 可能那个朋友对她有好感吧, 所以才那么心甘情愿! 那个朋友为了载她, 连上课到一半也溜走了, 这让我觉得很生气和讨厌她! 很多朋友都对她有所保留!

那天她敲我房门, 我就开门问她什么事, (无事不登三宝殿) 她就做出一幅楚楚可怜的样子说:" 请问你有熨斗吗?"..我就说有啊! 就这样借了她, 她还我时,东西都没收好, 这更让我很生气!

她的人就是这样,很会依赖别人,她前度男友都住在一起的,可是那个男的还是买力的为她煮面, 叫她起床...我看也看不下去这么样的一个人, 她已经有新的男友了, 就应该检典一些嘛! 唉......可是她就是这样...好像别人欠了她一样, 只怪那个男生太好人了!

今天刚知道我的朋友也被她叫去当车夫,载她去面试. 如果是她请自叫我朋友载, 我就没话说, 但是她就是利用那个对她有好感的男生, 要他去和我朋友说, 这样的事她也做, 还要我的朋友七早八早的起身载她去, 难道她真的不会不好意思吗?

这真的让我难以致信的! 好奇怪的人....

多管闲事

2008-02-20T00:39:00.000+08:00

突然觉得很难过。。。。。

其实那天我朋友有说起去E&O Hotel吃buffet的事，他说他姐有member card比较便宜，刚好这个星期我有一个朋友生日嘛！我就想说要不然就去那边咯！今天我就问我朋友的老婆，她就分析给我听说还蛮值得吃的。那我就说好咯，她就叫我问他老公（也就是我的koko)。而刚好我今天的课有遇到生日的朋友，我就告诉她咯！她其实想了很久才说ok的。我sms了koko，他说晚上在才msn告诉我，那里知他在msn说好贵啊！boy就听到blur blur的，他就问我，刚开始我也不知什么好贵，直到boy打去才知道原来他说去E&O吃buffet很贵！之后，boy就问我是不是和生日那个朋友说了，我就说是啊!then boy就没说什么了！这时候的我就觉得自己很多事！从此以后我都不要搞这些东西了！

我只是怕boy误会说我什么都没告诉他，因为之后他就没什么和我说话了！而且讲话的那种语气都很不好！他就躺着按电话，我躺着他旁边，他就停了一下，就问我不是要做功课吗？（妈的，那种语气）。我躺了一下就起身开我的电脑，用ear phone听歌，开大大声的。而他就继续按电话了咯！我也很生气了，他过后又走来我旁边，在我耳边叫我，吓到我了．那时我更加生气了，因为被吓了一下！他就把我的ear phone拿来听，之后又走回去睡了！这样也爽，妈的！

有时我就是这样，太在意别人怎么讲！我就是这样被人这么一说就会影响我的心情，这就是怪怪的我！别人大声和我说话，我就会觉得他在骂我．哎．．．．．．．

《一个人》

2008-02-16T17:57:00.000+08:00

三月开始，我就要一个人吃晚餐，一个人Zzzzz了！他要到别为去做工了，虽然不是说很远但是还是会不舍得，当他这么和我说，我的眼泪自动的流下来！我真的会觉得不习惯咯，因为一开始已经习惯每天都看到他！昨晚失眠就是为了这个事！虽然他说不能天天来但是可以隔天来，我还是会觉得有问题！因为久了，他自然会觉得很懒惰了！

丽:以后去shopping就没人载我们回咯!哈哈...........

为了工作，他也没办法啊！二月还剩下没多少，所以我都会很珍惜这几天和他好好相处!他不在,我一定会好想他咯!

情人节快乐

2008-02-15T13:00:00.000+08:00

其实我还蛮期待今天的到来得，因为这是我第一次和他过情人节，也是第一次庆祝情人节！这么多年以来我都不曾收过花，很想他送给我！但是想了一想还觉得很丢脸的，那么大个人了还捧着一大束花走在街！

他原本是想带我去autocity "tao" 吃日本餐的，因为是我的最爱，但是他说可能会迟放工，他就问我还想去吃什么，然后我就说the ship or T.G.I.Friday。因为比较近嘛而且我们又没有提早booking位子。我心以为他没有想过这个情人节的，但是他一早就有准备了，而我什么都没准备所以觉得有点不好意思咯！可是他说没关系哦，明年轮到我买礼物，他就不用买了！可是我有不想那样，所以我还是决定补送给他！

我们最后都选着去T.G.I.Friday吃，我们还叫了情人节的配套share share吃咯，其实还蛮饱的，如果叫两套，肯定会很饱的!今天大家都很多话讲的,真的很享受咯!我还蛮喜欢的.聊到一半,我们看到有一对情人手里捧着一大束花，当时我和他都对望了一下，然后就笑了！我想大家都知道其实送花是蛮尴尬的！

大家都聊得满开心得，突然他的电话响了，原来他的朋友叫他去拜天公，吃烧猪．．．他问了我想不想去，然后我就说随便咯，不想扫兴嘛！他的朋友又讲到不停，不肯放电话，最后他就假假骗他朋友电话没线就关了电话！我就问他什么事，他就说他朋友很啰嗦，打扰我们祝光晚餐！听他这么一说，心里还蛮甜的，哈哈，因为原来他也知道我有点不耐烦了！

吃完了就上车去大山脚他朋友家咯，我以为情人节就这样结束了，差不多到大桥中间，他伸手从车后拿了一袋东西给我，他没说什么就放在我的手，我就问他是什么，他就叫我自己看！我看了心里也没特别开心得，因为一眼望进袋里就是一只小熊和一瓶花之类的东西！然后我就把那袋东西放回后坐，他就问我为什么不打开礼物，我就说看了啊，就是一只小熊！他就笑了，他叫我看清楚一点，我看了很久才发现原来瓶子里面有一条项链的！哈哈！我真笨！他就问我：＂你认为我会送小熊那么优稚吗？＂想一想也觉得对，以他的人他是不会送我小熊的，他说他那个小熊和瓶子是买项链时，那个情人节配套一起送的！哈哈！还我摆乌龙！

我觉得很遗憾因为都没拍照留念．我觉得他不爱拍所以就没问他，其实我有带相机去的但是很自然的大家都没说要拍照！

看得出瓶子里的项链吗？

善意的谎言吗？

2008-01-22T16:55:00.000+08:00

一瞬间的心情又有新发现了！我知道如果被他知道，他一定会很生气我的！可是我就是很好奇，他到底有没有骗我！果然不出我所料，他真的第一次骗我了！有了第一次，我觉得一定会有第二次，第三次。。。。。

我需要找出答案是为了以后我应该小心提防!当我知道他骗我,我就对自己说那也许是善意的谎言!(应该说自我安慰吧!)哈哈...他做了很多第一次,第一次不接我电话,第一次对我撒谎!我想我可以原谅吧!因为是自己先发脾气的,可是我真的控制不了!其实那天他是和朋友出去喝酒的,但是他骗我说他回到家就睡了!我打给他,他没听,其实他是还没睡得!他还有时间发信息给朋友都不告诉我他回到家了.可能大家都还在气吧!过了一阵子就没事了吧!我希望如此啦!

这真的是善意的谎言吗?

一瞬间的心情

2008-01-20T22:04:00.000+08:00

今天约好如花三和如花四一起去shopping。其实我也没什么买的，只是在宿舍好闷哦,所以想出去走走!再加上他星期日要做工的,跟本都没时间陪我出去走走的!

我们大概一点多这样才出门然后去载如花三!今天是星期日所以特别多人,连找位也要等.我们到了那边就先医肚子然后才去一层一层的走.走到脚都累了,我们还是不死心得继续走下去!一整个下午的心情都很好的,一直到五点多,他发信息给我说他放工了,当然心情是超好的,因为他很久都没有那么早放工了!心里都想着等下要和他去那里吃什么的.他说想先去剪头发,我也说去咯,之后才来找我了.可是等到八点这样,电话都没响过,我就拨了一通电话给他,我问他在那里,你知他说什么吗?他竟然和朋友一起吃了,他都没通知我一声,害我一直在等他!心情真的很不好了,脾气也来了!他打了两通电话给我,我都没接.直到第三通,我接了,他问我要回了吗,他吃饱了!天啊!什么态度啊?好自私哦!我的语气也不好了,我就说你和朋友吃,那我就和朋友吃咯!然后他就说他刚接到电话要回去大山脚拿东西,可是给我感觉他是在骗我的!不可能那么巧的吧!真的好气好气哦........................

之前如花三问我,我和他有没有吵架过,我就说没有咯!想了觉得这些不能说出口的,一旦说了就会变成真实的.虽然没吵出来可是他就是不睬我,我就讨厌就是这样,被忽略的感觉!更本都不是我的错!好讨厌啊...................................................................

之后就陪如花三和四去买一些日常用品,我就去买了一瓶酒,我打算回家喝,之后就不必想那么多,一觉睡到天亮,现在酒也被我喝到一半了,开始脸红了,开始想睡了,开始醉了..........

时间能改变一切

2008-01-16T00:10:00.000+08:00

我非常的认同这一点！我真的没想到它会改变得那么快！以前的我们去了那里？很想找回以前的我们！大家都为彼此着想，你帮我，我帮你的，好融洽哦！

我觉得现在的一切都是假惺惺的！我很讨厌这样子的假，很不真实！好难过哦！我想我们回不到去从前了！因为大家心里都有个刺了！哎，为什么事情会搞成这样？很想对对方坦诚的说出来，可是说了，不知是否会改变回从前呢？

也许一个人的谈吐真的很重要。我的性格就是这样子，我很在意一个人的谈吐方式，一旦我觉得他/她的谈吐有刺，或没礼貌的话，我就会对他/她有点反感了！我很容易对人产生这样的反感，都不知是好是坏?

-Happy New Year 2008-

2008-01-02T22:40:00.000+08:00

Time fly very fast. Now already year 2008! This is the first time i celebrate my new year eve in penang with friends! Actually it is a boring new year for me, i dont know why? Maybe there is nothing special for me, meaningless for me.

I am waiting boy come to fetch me, i already at downstair there, quite traffic jam at that time, i thought the whole journey also will be jam but luckily after the junction there are no more traffic jam. We are going to pick friends then go to eat dinner at the hawker stalls. Still early, then we just direct to the gurney drive so that will not pack with others ppl. This is the first time i celebrate new year with boy, em...actually there is nothing special. Just a simple and normal celebration. The whole night just sitting along the sea side have a chit chat with beer.

The whole night i just keep myself quiet, not much talk. Just look at the people walk from the left to right, from the right to left......

I am sensitive to the alchohol,i just drink half of the tins, but my face like the red apple, a bit like drunken! haha...too bad! Actually i like to drink because after drinking it feel relax, blur blur and i can sleep very tight in the night!

merrY cHristm@s!!!

2007-12-26T13:36:00.000+08:00

Yeah..is time to be merry..HappY birthday to my dearest friend-->Sh@ron!

During the christmas eve,my ji mui n me already planning to celebrate pek lan birhtday at autocity! But the day i went to QB with friends untill 5pm,then come back hostel and prepare myself. The time pass very fast! Boy n me go to fetch lei first then we go to nearby tesco buy the cake and eat our dinner there,because everyone very hungry already. Actually when we go to fetch jiun already late a bit..but we are still can rush the time go to pacific pick pek lan.

When reach HALO cafe is already 10pm something,there are so many people to countdown. This is the first time i celebrate christmas with boy! Nothing special la,just in normal mood.

I am so happy can celebrate with all ji mui coz we really long time didt gather in 5 members lioa! Is a happy gathering..but that day i feel like i didt talk so much with my ji mui coz suddenly my coursemate coming to join me n boy...so i just accompany her lo,and much talk with them..Sorry ya ji mui!

sHaRon birthday...

i like it....

five forever..and ever

Boy..Sharon..Sawchia

funny picture

funny pictures

meRry chriStmAs...

~失眠夜~

2007-12-19T01:14:00.000+08:00

最近我都失眠的,一到晚上就睡不下了!我也不知为什么,脑里总是爱想东想西的,可是到最后还是没想出什么东西!失眠真的很难熬,我最讨厌就是失眠了,想睡但是睡不下那种痛苦!而身边的他,当然是睡到很熟了!有时他半夜起身也会被我吓到,因为我还是眼睁睁得!然后我就会被他念几句!"为什麽不能睡啊?"是不是下午睡太多啊?".......

也许最近就是在烦着我和他的事吧!这个星期四是public holiday,心以为他不必做工,因为大多数人都没做!但是今天我问他(其实还没问他之前我心里已有答案了),他说他有做,当时我真的有点不开心了,所以在车上就静静的,吃东西也不想说话,他说笑话我也笑不出...我心想他没做工,我们可以去走走的!唉...而我呢也做决定回家,他也没说什么的,也说ok咯!吃饱后,他就带我去买车票,其实我是很懒惰回的,但是想到这么多天假期,难道就真的要呆在宿舍吗,所以才决定回家!反正他也没说什么!

另外一件事就是,每当我们出去,我要牵他的手,他就会把手放进裤袋里!我真的很气他这样子,难道牵手会很为难吗?心里总是不舒服的!今天当他又把手放进裤袋,我也赶快把手放开了,我也不再牵他的手了,除非他自己牵我的手!而他也很聪明,他知道我今天怪怪的,就一直问我做么静静的，而我就笑笑说没事！为什麽我不直接告诉他呢？因为我觉得说出来也没用的！他一定有他自己的原因的！

就这么的一天就有很多事让我觉得不舒服的！也许只要我把每件事想开些，就不会弄到自己那么的不开心了！

不能理解的疑问！

2007-12-14T16:33:00.000+08:00

今早送他出门去做工后，我就不能睡了，所以就打开电脑，想一想成绩出了，才去看看！真预想不到的事，好令我伤心哦！我花费一个星期准备的那个科目，尽然那么差！为什么？我真的很不明白，当时考试，我全都会做！有些朋友平时都不怎么对这科感兴趣，都考的比我好！为什么？我对这次的考试的付出，为什麽会有这样的答案呢？

今早坐在电脑前发呆了，我左想右想真的觉得我的付出是白费的!而其他科目都没另我失望，我越是期待高的那科，结果且反效果的！为什么？我心里有很多个为什么？？我还能怎样？

今早去学校报名，知道朋友都考到很好，为什麽不是我？难道我还付出的不够吗？这个学期，那科还有part II的，但是我已不敢对它抱着很大的期望，所以我决定不拿了！因为期望越高失望也高！

唉！为什么？为什么？为什么？

五个月的日子

2007-12-14T12:53:00.000+08:00

很快的我和boy在一起相处已有五个月了，那就是140天了，也就是3360个小时了！哈哈！这是最正确的算法吧！其实在这段日子，真的要谢谢他咯，因为我觉得他帮我蛮多的！虽然他神经线大条以外，但是他还真的有把我放在眼里！他总会帮我分析我的问题，我的烦恼也减少了！

一对couple难免也会有一些不爽对方的时候啦！但是都没大声吵架的!五个月了, 对他的了解还是有点保留, 我想是时候要问清楚了, 要不然就摸不清楚对方! 把握一切吧!至于一些future的问题就要好好的想一想吧!你的青春还在!

~搭巴士记~

2007-12-13T11:42:00.000+08:00

今天我和如花三约好一起去看戏,因为我们两个实在太闷了,在宿舍无所事事的,其他如花有工作的就做工咯!如花三说好一点在bus stop等,太概等十分钟,眼睁睁得看着去gurney plaza的巴士经过了!其实我们都不会搭什么号码的巴士,所以如花三决定转巴士,我们先搭去jetty然后再问看怎样搭!还好我们出门都遇贵人,贵人自动会问我们要去那里啊,自动教我们怎样搭.(其实我们的样子看起来像不会搭巴士吧,因为我们都东张西望的).

这整个车程都浪费了我们两个多小时了,真难以相信吧!当中我做了一个很有意义的事.平时不要搭巴士就觉得那些巴士很可怜,因为只有三两只小猫而已,可是我们搭的那辆巴士尽然挤满人了,站在我面前的是个很老的uncle,我犹豫了很久不知该不该让位给他坐,最终我还是起身让他老人家坐!哈哈!

我和如花三看"THE GOLDEN COMPASS",起初还以为很好看,怎么知那套戏完了,尽然还有人发出一个很奇怪的声音"huh.........."，我和如花三都笑了，原来那套戏是没有ending的！看完戏都已经六点半了，如花四也放工了，我们就一起吃晚餐咯！

还好回的时候不必搭巴士，要不然就死定。我们做如花四的车回，大家都安全的回到宿舍！这一天就这样结束了!

《选择》

2007-12-09T13:13:00.000+08:00

对于这份感情，我真的不知该如何走下去！其实并没有争吵，只是我家人方面！为什么他们对我每一段的感情都有意见呢？难道我真的选错了吗？他们一直在我耳边说这个那个的,搞到我对这份感情跟本没信心了!家人一直说他不好,工作方面不好,人格方面不好.......他们对于我心目中的对象是怎么样的呢?

开始觉得他们很烦,他们都说我找的男朋友来去都是这样子的!那到底是什么意思?唉....而他们越这么说反而我会越反感咯! 我清楚自己在做什么...我不是要靠男人才可以的!我也有自己的想法!他们就是这样要把事情弄复杂.他们还说要我毕业后回kl做工...难道我没有选择的权力吗?

其实这个问题我一直都不敢告诉他,因为这样会很伤人的自尊心!也许一切都顺其自然吧!

oNe day touR with frenz..^-^

2007-11-30T14:39:00.000+08:00

26 of december i am going back to selama with mum n brother,coz mum said wanna back to take something for my eldest sister,coz she is now confinement...

The next day i decide to go penang with my buddy n do our hair together,from the start got 4ppk wanna go hair but then just leave me n jiun only..jiun also go for her second interview in gurney hotel...yeah,finally the company wanna hire jiun liao,so jiun will have her first job in penang..after her interview we went to gurney plaza to do our hair..after consideration,i make a decision to do curly hair,actually i also want to do rebonding which is same with jiun, but the stylist told me that my hair style not so suitable rebonding coz too "nipis" at the bottom part of the hair..

Haiz...at last i do the digital perm,i want the natural one,cz i scare look like aunty look..after finish to do hair, me n jiun went to kimgary eat our breakfast+lunch,cz too hungry liao! then we only go to queenbay mall to meet lei n ing..we have our dinner there at nando's...haha!really long time didt gather together liao,unfortunately still less one,who is lan..she is now working at pacific so cant join us..

From the beginning i told jiun cant overnite cz mum wanna use car, but then i still overnite,haha,,,,we went to sing K at red box karaoke with frenz...we sing untill 3am,so terrible hor,somemore ing need to work for the next day...but i still feel happy with that although we seldom meet but still can crazy together..many of them said that i m "bian tai"..haha cz i always "intip" one of the frens' underwear,cz he always didt wear his pant probably so i "tidak sengaja" saw it,actually i m not "bian tai" la...haha

hOOrAy.....hOLidaY

2007-11-15T13:40:00.000+08:00

好不容易才等到这一天的到来哦——〉那就是考试完了咯!真的好难熬哦!辛苦我了..哈哈!
样子真的憔脆了很多,熊猫眼都有,痘逗又有....唉!
我第一件事要做的当然不是睡觉咯,那就是我想去剪头发,boy一直都说我头发很难看,不知我的是什么头发,令我好难过(被他这么一讲):-(
考试完的意思就是说我要回家了,不可能要我呆在槟城无所事事的,每天都等他放工啊,所以才决定回家..顺便回去看selina(我大姐啦)的baby,那就是我的外甥咯!暂时分开一个月当然很难做到,最多我们也是分开一个星期而已..这次应该会两地跑咯(kL&penang).我想应该不是大题啦!最重要的还是互相体谅,迁就...想通了^0^

雨天的一场考试！

2007-11-07T14:52:00.001+08:00

今早我很早就起床了，印象中应该是四点凌晨吧！我和boy都约好这个时候起来，是不是很奇怪为什么他也那么早起床咧！嘻嘻（他不是陪我读书啦）。。我读我的书，而他做他的功课。。可是到后来只有我起身，而他继续睡，因为下起雨，很好睡嘛。。。

这次的考试让我付出很多精神！第一次天没亮就爬起来读书而且是读完了就直接去考试了！这次的考试让我很紧张哦!我也不知为什麽这样子!
接近考试时间了,外面还是下很大雨,boy就问我怎样去,然后我就说搭巴士去咯,因为一直以来我都是搭巴士的,(其实心里是很想他说:"我载你去吧!")但是他静静没出声而我也没说要他载啦!
过不就雨还是很大,他就说我载你去啦!..心里爽的不得了..!这时我的朋友就发了一个信息问我:"需不需要载我一起去?"这个朋友boy也认识的,boy就问我要怎样,我就说我想他载我去咯...然后他就说他要直接去做工,又说等下他不会从学校出来...........一大堆的借口!当时的我脸色都变了,就爬起身不睬他了!(无论他怎样叫我)想起来就生气!如果他一早那么想,那之前他就不会说载我去了啦!害我考试都脸黑黑的....:-(

快乐星期六！

2007-10-29T17:34:00.000+08:00

今天一早就起床了，送boy出去做工后，我就继续读我的书，然后十点去朋友家一起温习！大概两点这样爸妈来找我一起吃午餐（觉得好幸福哦），然后他们就回了，因为我要考试要温习了。。
之后我也听话继续温习咯！今晚boy的朋友结婚，他问我要不要去，想了很久才决定不去了。。

第一：要考试了！
第二：怕闷！
第三：不知穿什么衣！
第四：之后要去夜店！（久没去了所以不是很想去）

我就以为晚餐要自己"搞定"　了．．电话终于响了，原来是我久没见得 "茹花三"（nai nai )，她约我一起吃晚餐咧．．哈哈！我们很久都没见面了，数一数都快四个月了（从我生日那天算起）．．我还以为她把我给忘了！

"茹花三" 八点就到了，她把她的战车（kriss motor）停在学校里面，然后我们在我宿舍楼下meet咯！过后就一起走路去吃pizza，从八点多吃到十点多，店都快打烊了，我们还在谈天（无所不谈）那种．．你们是不是很羡慕咧？

好久都没好好坐在一起谈天了！突然好想念你们哦！
我们还谈不够，nai nai还上来我宿舍继续再谈，可见我们的友谊不会因为时间而冲淡哦！

preparation for final exam !

2007-10-26T21:42:00.000+08:00

I am having my two weeks study week now..This semester i am going to sit for 5 paper in the final,so a bit stress for me..coz now already final year liao,so have to put more effort on it..If not i will lose in second upper class liao..i m just at the 3 pointer,so a bit risk for me...Haiz,hate exam la...last time i still have a roomate to study together but now leave me alone study in my room...actually its ok la,but sometime will feel a bit boring,noone can chat with...study from day to night...i really dun know why malaysia education why want to have exam..

At night,i wait for boy having dinner together lo,then we back my hostel n i continue to my study while he continue online at my room..Luckily,i still can conentrate on my study although he is beside me..He is so understanding me..haha

Good Luck to SAWCHIA final exam o!!!!!!!!!

久违了。。。

2007-10-26T21:13:00.000+08:00

好久没上来“坐坐”了！好想念你们哦！刚从subang回来有点懒了，然后又要开始温习了，因为考试就快到了！

那天我妈载我回来槟城，还没回宿舍，我们就先去queensbay shopping，直到七点多。。送妈妈下楼后，回到自己房就开始找电话和钱包，最后才知道原来放在妈妈的bag...当时的我真的很躁急了，就和朋友借电话，这时我才想起妈妈的电话也没电了。那为什么我不打我自己的电话呢???因为我的电话也没电了...真的很胡图!急死我了,眼泪都快流出来了!最后等到boy来,才觉得安慰一点,就用他电话找人,原本打算回selama拿的,但是最后找到妈妈了,原来他们还在kulim highway那边,boy就飞车载我过去,妈妈就在那边等我..妈妈终于第一次看到了,妈妈有和他笑笑..我一下车妈妈就骂我,因为这是我第二次这样子了..哈哈!
之后就和boy去大山脚吃东西,他约了他朋友..吃完就回槟城了!

第二天我打给妈妈,她就说要考试了,不要参朋友到处去(她指的朋友是boy),看来妈妈是不喜欢我拍拖咯....我就撒谎说只是普通朋友而已,暂时不适合告诉妈妈!

气死人的星期日

2007-10-14T23:04:00.000+08:00

这一切我都不明白“它”真正的定义。。。我真的很努力在控制自己的坏脾气了，我也试着去体谅一个人。。但是有时觉得自己这样做真的很辛苦！好像不是真实的我。

今天是星期日，我原以为会有什么节目的但是一直等他睡醒已经是六点了！天啊！竟然让我等了一整天，我真的好生气他这样子，如果前一天是有做工，我还可以明白他做工累了，要多睡！但是前一天是public holiday啊！而且我还比他迟睡咧！我一直有叫他起身可是他就是不听，让我肚子饿了一整天，他有叫我自己驾车去买东西吃，可是我就是想和他一起吃啊！忍无可忍了，我就去喝麦片咯！

他起身了，他叫我，我不睬他，他知道我生气了，他就用了＂taktik"来骗我的谅解．．他带我去tambun 吃螃蟹，生嚎！我们两个还有他一个朋友去钓鱼台！

隔天就要去kl了，要等到一个星期才见面了，所以我特别紧张这一天！吃完回到宿舍已经九点半了．心想可以好好聊天了，但是他接到朋友的电话，约他去喝酒，他问我要不要去，我立刻想都没想就说不去了，他问我为什么？我就问回他一定要去的吗？他就说看我自己咯！他知道我不爽了．．我真的摆着我不爽的脸让他知道．都那么迟了，我也不想出去了，因为都换好衣服了！

他今天又不知去到几点了，我给了他一把锁匙，不理他几点回了．明早我还要搭早上的巴士！

h@ppy hoLidAys..^-^

2007-10-14T01:28:00.000+08:00

Today is public holiday (selamat hari raya),boy no need to work for two days,yeah so happy! Today (13 october 2007) is we being together 3months,but no celebration la,we have the time to accompany each other lo...really very fast,already 3months liao..u know,one day,one of my fren ask me,why dont bring him home let my family know him,i just keep quiet,cz i dunno how to answer him..then he ask me izit not confident with this relationship? after a few minutes i nod(angguk kepala)...i think that i really not so confident,maybe it will take time for me to let my family accept it lo..

The whole day nothing to do,we woke up is already around 1pm, he said want go to wash his car n cut hair..we went to one-stop there having our breakfast+lunch--->KFC....sien nia

At nite we went to the "new world park",ate "bak ku teh" with his frenz..i am so bored, cz just knew his frenz,just sitting there n listen what they are talking lo,but sometime also dunno what they are talking..There also very nice, just like a park,many shops and cafe and restaurant there...

The day before holiday, we went to QE2,just have a chit-chat there with frenz..the view at there very nice and beautiful,along the seaview..unfortunately i didt take any nice photo there la,just one picture can show here! actually that day i m drunken la..haha,so embarrass..

two buckets of heineken

莫明其妙：-（

2007-10-11T19:10:00.000+08:00

我真的不知发生什么事咯！昨晚说他要回家，我也没多说什么啦!他到家了有告诉我，我也没怎样，然后通了几个sms，他就没回我了，我以为他睡了，就试着打给他咯，他真的没接电话，我就真的以为他睡了．．

过了一个小时，他打来了，我真的吓到，就以为他不小心按到电话，拿起电话他问我刚才打给他什么事，他说刚才电话放在车上．．哇！当时我真的很生气，你懂吗？他回到家又出去都没和我说，害我以为他睡了！我真的很生气他！

今天一整天，彼此都没有对方．．他弄我生气，尽然一句道歉都没有，一通电话也没有，一封sms都没有．．刚好我电话也没钱了所以也没理他．气死我了！刚刚接到他的电话，他喏无其事的．．什么态度啊！！！！！！

沒有"你"的日子!

2007-10-10T21:41:00.000+08:00

今天早上只是去上一个小时的课,我想是最后一堂了所以就去上咯!反正在宿舍也没事做!去到学校才只有三个人而已,也没办法啊,老师说也要上!这次是我第一次上那么少人的课..

之后就一整天在宿舍了,快闷死我了!boy又要做工哦，没办法咯，然后他今天又要回家所以都没人陪我了！原本打算一个人去走走的但是他又不给我去喔！真讨厌，就在宿舍咯！看戏啊，上网啊．．．．真的很无聊啊！原本想提早回家的但是又有假期哦，又想多陪大家几天所以才选下个星期回．．

是时候学会独立了，有时真的想一个人去走走的，不需要任何人的陪伴，很想试着过这样的生活．．以后还有很多事都要学会独立了，不能一直都依赖了．．可是又不习惯一个人的生活，因为我是不甘寂寞的人！哎，做人真烦，要求总是那么多，要求那么高．．可是如果不是这样的生活，那会进步呢？

Finally.....

2007-10-09T13:33:00.000+08:00

Yeah! At last, i pass up all the assignment already..so happy with that..Before that, always rush the assignment from day till night, not enough sleep..So , now i can sleep how much i want liao..haha
During my busy time, i ignore my friend, so at here i would like to say sorry lo, cz really crazy to do the assignment untill no mood to talk...
Start right now, i will have my study week for 2 weeks, after raya i will go back subang one week then return to penang fight for my exam liao..so enjoy first, bitter at last...hehe

Gua Tempurung v.s Jiun Birthday

2007-10-02T17:10:00.000+08:00

Last week i am so excited cz my ji mui "jiun" say she want to come penang have a gathering with us, (actually she want us help her celebrate birthday)..haha

But then she sms me said that she lazy come, i know the truth reason la, is my fault lo...At first jiun said want to overnite at my place, u know i m so bad i ask her can go nai nai there or not cz of HIM.(berat warna ringan kawan)..Weekend nai nai need to work so inconvenient lo, so jiun decided not coming le...SORRY! If not we can celebrate birthday together, i really feel guilty u know...

Luckily, selama buddies plan to go Gua Tempurung. At first i plan to go with ka farn car but he tell me that his car already got 5persons, so me n ing discuss wanna go or not lo..finally keat lou say OK..so we join them!

Early in the morning, i wake up le then prepare everything n wait for ing..we all meet up at the rest station Sg. Perak.

I feel that very happy cz long time didt together le, luckily we not like strange each other, still fren like last time...haha, am i right, girls?

After adventure the gua, we all feel hungry, we go to have our dinner with economic rice..haiz! Then they decided go to Jusco to play bowling, but then they say go to play games first then girl go to shopping lo, nothing to buy la cz tired ady no mood shopping, but my ji mui "jiun & ing" still have the energy to shopping la..

3 of us stop at secret recipe have a seat n have a chit chat there..me n ing order mushroom soup while jiun order a cheese cake..At here i want to say sorry to jiun, although u order the cake, why i didt realise that is ur birthday la..haiz..somemore the bill is paid by u..haiz..

On the way back home, i am thinking about that, then i ask ing "why just now at secret recipe we didt buy cake for jiun ar? Why didt sing a birthday song to her ar?" Ing also say "ya lo hor"..at that time i just feel sad, so important date also can forget, haiz!....so bad n terrible.

Hope jiun wont mind ya!

Some pictures to show here:

3 of us become "luo tang ji" "Nike & Puma" also get we
Girls & Boys

me capture with my camera first then jiun take capture with her camera..."siao"

Finally we take picture together

friendship can be remained forever?

2007-09-28T12:03:00.000+08:00

Actually i am so curious about this friendship..i dont believe that friendship can be remained forever..Why i always facing this problems in my life? HATE IT...just like be abandoned and betrayed....
When the other join in, i can see the friendship start changing..i really didt think too much, i can feel it,u know....i just like being foolish by someone,so stupid...haiz
U know perli by friend is not a happy thing, i just like to share with each other, not the type to show off or fighting in materialistic...Right now, i also feel that i am being far from them, i dunno what topic they are talking..
When doing work, they didt take it in serious, everything dun care..For me, when is the time to play i will enjoy it; when is the time to do work i will be serious...that is me...
When asking people something, please ask in manners way...if u want to ask then u must listen to that person...but the person fight back what u talk, is rude..if u dun believe what i say then better dun ask me,am i right?
what the hell? Haiz......being stress, u know?
What is the inner of friendship?
When i am not happy i can share with; when i need help, they are beside me;
Last time we share the problems together but now nomore already..all become materialistic and realisitc...

my favourite ---> duRiAn cake

2007-09-26T17:19:00.000+08:00

Last week my friend tell me that Secret Recipe got a new cake that is DURIAN CAKE. When i heard that i am very excited, so the next day i m going to search it, finally i found it..Unfortunately, the girl say cannot sell in slices. If want to buy need to buy the whole cake..DAMN...
I am going with boyboy...he saw my disappointed face, then he say wanna buy the whole cake, but i say dun wan la cz i scare i cant finish it..On the way back hostel, he said that buy the whole cake then share with others friends lo...after i think twice, also can mah...i can share with others...the next day again, i m going there..haha...gila durian....i quickly take the order and decide to buy it...haha
I am happy today i get my durian cake lo...erm...actually not very nice la,the MAnila PLace is the best one..inner of the cake is full with the real durian but the Secret Recipe one just durian paste only...But, i still can eat durian cake...yahoo..hooray....thanks boyboy bought for me...i love u..........haha

h@ppy wedding ^_^

2007-09-18T16:16:00.000+08:00

16 of September 2007 is my second sis-Rachel wedding. So the day before that is friday i am off to KL to attend the wedding.

Erm..actually nothing special and no more fresh coz of the environment. At first, we all decided to have the buffet at my big sis hus but then she is pregnant so the old people say good news and good news cannot wor..so just rent the hall at 3K,just a simple hall,somemore the preparation of the food just normal,not very delicious. That night we overnite at the apartment at Sunway Resort..My sis having her wedding there!The apartment very nice and beautiful la,but many of our relative didt turn up. Maybe too far for them to reach..

All my siblings and cousin think about the game to my sister in law..but then he is not the sporting guy,reject to play this play that..haiz

About the dinner is combine with the boy side,at Sekinchan..From subang to there,its take almost 2hours..along the journey we all very tired but no choice ar,also have to be there..

The whole day, we reach subang at 12:30am then i quickly pack my things and chat a while with mum,is already 2am.So i quickly go to bed..u know why?because i am taking the flight at 6:55am,that mean i have to wake up at 4am,i just slept 2 hour only ar....so cham!!actually no need so rush geh but that day the lecturer said that the monday class very important so i have to turn up lolz, if not i will stay untill tuesday!

Finally we all pass it happily although we are very tired....@_@

關心>>c@ring

2007-09-10T21:17:00.000+08:00

好久沒上來聊聊天了...也沒甚麼忙啦!最近也沒特別事發生...
那天我去剪頭髮,我真的很後恢因為我覺得比之前的難看又難達理...真的很想頭髮快快長!再加上下個星期是我二姐的大好日子(結婚日啦)!
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.....還有我覺得他并不關心我!他忙到連我也忘了!在朋友面前他有時沒想,要講甚麼就講甚麼,都沒理會到我的感受!有時和他講話會覺得他語氣很重,我真的好討厭這樣子喔!有時我寧願靜靜得,選擇不說話是最好的..不要再和我說"應該告訴他我的感受"..我覺得自己沒有錯......
他今天又沒來找我,他說有東西做,當然我相信他啊!但是心裡會很不爽啦!我不會告訴他因為我知道我說了,他會認為我沒體諒他...開始覺得要維持一段感情真的很不容易!一切都須要時間!

~tHe beginning of Septemb3r~

2007-09-01T16:47:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i went to eat dinner with HIM and his friends(a couple). We went to opposite the Northam Hotel..em...quite boring sitting there,like a "soh po"..dunno what topic they are talking,dunno how to join in...

Sometimes i feel that he just think that i will make him "no face" in front of his friend,this is what can i feel...why?any wrong with me? I dont think that i will make my partner "no face" lo...but he is different..laughing me..

My 4th sis(cherie) going back to subang during this weekend,but i didt go coz of HIM..if i go then he will feel alone here so i make a lie to my family that i cant get the ticket.( actually i didt try to buy it)..so bad hor..

Today my 3rd sis (agnes) 3G me, i saw their happiness there,accept me at penang..they are going to One-U shopping then go to Sekinchan having dinner with my 2nd sis (rachel)..they go to eat seafood there..i havent been there eat seafood leh...:-(

The whole day, i just stay at room,no where to go...waiting HIM finish his job..sometime feel boring with this kind of life...just steady,no increase no decrease...so this few holidays,u will see i am free to drop my feeling,my comment here...

"alone in my room......"that why do some childish thing lo>>>self-capture

~米跌價>>merdeka<<~

2007-08-31T11:37:00.000+08:00

HooRay......merdeka!merdeka!merdeka!
今天是公共假期,而我呢只好呆在宿舍!因為他要做工!!:-(
之前問他時,他和我說沒有但是突然又說要做了!就只好遷就他!就只好體諒他!原本約好朋友去金馬侖的但是到最後我卻放他們飛機,希望他們不會怪我啦!
米跌價的前夕,我和他去看戲還有我的koko & tai shou.看到來都十一點多了,就去cosmic坐坐,順便倒數"米跌價.".還好我們坐的是風水位,能看到煙花..我們大概坐到兩點就回了!....

真的那麼脆弱嗎?

2007-08-28T15:54:00.000+08:00

最近也沒甚麼特別,還是老樣子.....
那天星期日,我都呆在宿舍一整天,等他放工!好不容易等到他放工了就很開心的拿起電話,怎麼知他和我說要回去找老板談公事..我明白我應該體諒但是就是很不開心的耍脾氣...他問我要不要去吃?當然我說不必啦!因為我都知他要回了,所以就說我自己去吃而他也說好的.
想了想還是覺得應該讓他知道我的心情<失望>..
Unfortunately,i didt get any reply from HIM.So i know what happen liao>>that is he angry with me...from that moment he didt care me,didt call me up...Ask u all again,am i wrong?
One of my "jie mei" said that i have a bit wrong..that is i didt "ti liang" HIM..
Actually i know geh,but i just wanna let HIM know my feeling,that's it..
The next day,he find me but a word he didt talk to me,both of us just keep quiet and pay attention on our food..no more talking
At that moment, i feel very sad..if he angry me or what,he can say to me..I dun like people treat me like that,i dun know what actually happen,what actually he dun like,what actually i am doing wrong...he should tell me...but none..
U know what my feeling now...he acts like dun care,no sms,no call...what for?haiz...................I HATE IT>>>>"the feeling people didt care about"

<<話題少了>>

2007-08-24T13:00:00.000+08:00

是不是見面次數多了,話題就會跟着減少....
我覺得我們之間的話題變少了!每次坐下來吃東西,大家都把注意力放在食物上!有時我會想還沒在一起那種快樂!大家無所不談的,想說甚麼就說!!
有時會覺得很悶....但是快樂的時候還是會有啦!
下個星期是假期,很想和他兩人出外玩但是他要做工所以想都沒想因為知道是不可能的!沒關係啦....
昨天是我第一次發他脾氣喔!因為有是我覺得他講話往往都沒顧慮到我的感受...弄到我很不開心....也許大家都須要些時間去了解吧!不要收在心里因為這樣會造成心里不舒服!盡量去表達自己.....加油吧!!!!!

outLooKs...

2007-08-21T12:58:00.000+08:00

I am really care about someone outlook especially wearing....it is very important,u know?
I know cz of his job so he has a dark skin, this is what i can consider but then his wearing i totally cant accept lo...u know he already very dark then he still wear the bright color shirt..really like uncle la...hehe
Why i am so care about ar?....haiz....
Sometime i feel like cant talk so much with HIM lo,whatever i say sure he say me this and that...i dun like ppl say me like that especially those close with me...i tell HIM that his fren chat with me through msn,i say his fren very "fan" keep asking the same question, then he say i dunno talk wor,dunno cut off the question...what i can i say?i cant rebate cz i dun hv chances....haiz
Just like wanna......give up....hehe

..wi$hiNg U..

2007-08-17T13:21:00.000+08:00

Today is his birthday...so as usual as a friend, i just sms him n wish him...just a simple message"happy birthday"...
Then he keep calling me but i didt answer his call..i dun wan answer because nothing talk with him..somemore i think it is unfair if i answer his call..so i just change the mode to silent...
Actually nothing mah cz last time when i brithday he also wish me mah so now when his birthday so i just wish him lo...so fair lo...
I didt answer him then he msg me n ask me why dun wan pick up the phone?BUt i still didt answer/reply him...i dun wan make him think too much..i wan him forget it...if he treats me as friend maybe i will answer his call..
Anyway,i just hope he will do in well in his carrier..good in health...really hope he will happy all the day...find a suitable partner....finally happy birthday to uuuu...

無心傷害

2007-08-14T13:11:00.000+08:00

對不起!我真的沒注意到你的出現...
和平時一樣,上完夜課,我就和他去吃東西!我們去吃我的最愛,那就是<果條湯>....
怎麼知去到那裡才知道那個攤販休息沒開!!反正都去到了就順便在那吃了!當我準備開車門下車時,我竟然沒注意後面的摩托車,就這樣被我的不小心弄倒在地...我就喊叫因為被當時的情況嚇壞...
當時的我很害怕,就躲在車里,腦袋一片空白!!
I also dunno how to describe at that moment..Luckily the motorist no injured and no need to pay any fees..Why i am so careless??If anything happen to motorist then how am i...cant imagine!!
He thought i also got injured then he keep asking me, izit any hurt?then i say nothing...we still go to eat there, i feel guilty and just keep quiet..haiz..
Sorry to HIM cz i make his car spoilt and need to take it to repair...
I promise that next time i will be carefull, wont be so careless anymore!!

oNe mOnth lolZ..

2007-08-13T16:22:00.000+08:00

Today me n HIM already being together for one month..time pass very fast..The time being together very happy lo,sometime i also make HIM angry lo,maybe bcz of my expression..he seldom make me unhappy la,sometime he likes to "kacau" me like saying,he go to know other girl,cz he knows sure i jealous then he will ask me izit jealous??haha...hopefully this relation can be longer + happier...

I m going to buy HIM a shirt just for the one month anniversary..

Only me happy lo,cz my family still dun know i got bf..i really scare they dun like lo..just give me some time,after that i will introduce HIM to my family,hope they can accept HIM lo..

我真的可以容納嗎?

2007-08-09T00:42:00.000+08:00

我在想有時自己是怎樣的?好像傻傻那樣不懂自己要的是甚麼....
告訴你們,其實有時我會想起以前的他!!我真的不知為什麼會這樣子!!
我總覺得自己還放不下那樣!我會覺得對現在的他很不公平..他們兩個都有不同的性個,有時候太相似了!所以搞到我自己很矛盾!!
哈哈!你們是不是認為我想太多了?為什麼我每次都這樣的...真的是死性不改!!我想應該很難改了!!!

@M i think too much?

2007-08-08T21:35:00.000+08:00

RUsh for assignment!!Sien!!!!
While waiting HIM come to fetch me eat, i m writing my blog here..
Today i have appointment with the lecturer, i wait my friend downstair..then when i saw her/him, then i walk toward,but i feel embarress...u know why?
WHen i almost reach her/him car, she/he drive her car more front..u know at that peak time,so many ppl there..very pai seh!!at least she/he can wait me go into the car mah..haiz
Now just feel like she/he always perli me this or that..my heart cant receive all those things..where is she/he??last time she/he wont like dat....why har?
Maybe i think too much lo...coz sure when i tell everyone that,they will say me think too much...noone can understand my feeling at that moment ppl perli me....
So i choose to write out to express it....hehe

bLuR in miND>>------@

2007-08-05T13:41:00.000+08:00

"Why i m so blur about it?"
In some actions, he is too similiar last time "him". I feel like cant step in anymore, hard to express my feeling to HIM..when he asking me question, i just like cant explain well to HIM..i try but i fail..he just like not very understand me, he always wanted the answer in complete way. BUt it is hard, u know?HAiz......
Actually my mood very good on that day (4-8-07)..
we went to watch movie, go to eat sushi king although he dun like to eat but he still accompany me..Sure i feel happy!!But all changes in a second......
On the way, he ask me some question, but i cant give HIM the answer that he wants..then he just say"if fee hard to say then no need to say",he say just both of us in car only, why i still cant voice out...it is too similiar,just like happen last time..i very hate this feeling, nobody care about my feeling...he just like impatient when talking with me..OMG!!
U know i already try n try n try!!finally......:-(what i get??NOthing!!!
Izit all my fault??i cant really understand the situation..
He has different characteristic..
After express out, i just feel like relax and my heart just like put down a rock..
Really hope that everything can remain...just be same...i just need a simple life!!!

"hold me in warm palm"

^^ 镓镓有本难念的经 ^^

还能在一起吗？

终身幸福

《没那么简单》

不真实的感觉

爱在不对的时间

黑色星期三

决定

等下见

突然很想有个家

失眠夜@-@

==伤心==

Awaiting for A loNg hoLid@ys

Stay OR Leave?

Lecturing is a challenge job?

2010 New Year..New Target..New,nEw,neW

期待三年后你给我的幸福

Make a Move to proLong your relationShip

Future can be predicted?

~I like December month~

Hooray Holiday....

First of Working D@y

*New Start of NOVEMBER*

黄素镓怎么了？

嫁个有钱人是幸福的吗？

冻过水@假期

最后的聚餐

梦想

End of Journey Part of My Life

误会

压力

Reformation 2009

人与人@相处

衷心祝福

情人节快乐

圣诞节快乐

Happy Wedding

好想念老朋友

December Holidays

好无头绪+茫然

回家记

《前度的骚扰》

*New Life*

Be patient....

我的心好累，好累，好累哦！

毕业了。。

我们在一起一年了

新的开始，新的生活，新的自己

我有個不開心的生日

毕业等于失业吗？

《我不哭》

Choir Performance

情感联络站

独立@一人

Pantai Merdeka @ Trip

无聊@天

距离

怪怪的他

第一次的面试

Funny Photo ^-^

U.N.B.E.L.I.E.V.A.B.L.E

多管闲事

《一个人》

情人节快乐

善意的谎言吗？

一瞬间的心情

时间能改变一切

*-*Happy New Year 2008*-*

merrY cHristm@s!!!

*~*失眠夜*~*

不能理解的疑问！

五个月的日子

*~搭巴士记~*

《选择》

oNe day touR with frenz..^-^

hOOrAy.....hOLidaY

雨天的一场考试！

快乐星期六！

preparation for final exam !

久违了。。。

New Start of NOVEMBER

New Life

-Happy New Year 2008-

~失眠夜~

~搭巴士记~